Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Last day of 2008


i think today is my worst day in 2008...

woke up as usual to prepare for work, and walked to mrt as usual, wear my very comfortable plastic shoes, but i fell down on the road while reaching mrt station~ gosh~!!! what's more, the zip of my skirt broke again... and i have to cover myself with my pink scarf... and both knees is bleeding till now~

really hope that this is the last bad thing to happen on me...

Happy New Year 2009~! To myself, and all the people that i care out there~!

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Fish Spa @ QianHu


today, went for my very 1st time fish spa with aunty @ QianHu...

the feeling is so funny... itchy, itchy & itchy... thats what i felt at 1st as we chose the medium fish pond... then we regretted and head to the small fish pond, and this time we get to control ourselves for not laughing and moving... and its a good experience too... i like the feeling and would like to try again in the future...

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Merry Christmas~!


it has been really a long time that i did not blog... i have been too busy for this new job for the past month and am still being the same busy mode for almost everyday~

a lot of things happened during this period... happy & sad, crazy, wild, dump... too many to be remembered...

i miss my old colleagues very much on the 1st week working in the new environment... extremely miss them especially baby, uncle chiang & alex... and... i cried on the 2nd week of my new work... due to the stress, workloads on the 2nd day i started to handle my jobs... felt that im so useless & helpless at that very moment...

been very busy with works & life... during this period, i have attended 2 weddings, one was Meiyen, my jimui's wedding with Mr Wan Hon Kit, another one was my youngest uncle, he finally settled down...

then weiteck came to singapore and we spent crazy yet happy night together with chai woon & melissa at Marina Barrage...

now, my best friend, kaili, and her family are here in singapore for xmas, and i am going out to meet them soon....

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year 2009~!

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

New Begining





it has been more than 2 weeks since i left my old company - MCT, which i have been working for 1 year & 11 months...

it is really not an easy decision for me to make to leave this company especially when there are so many of friends that i appreciate working together with... but, i have to go on and live my life for myself... friends are important, but i can't let friends decides for my future, so, i decided to change a new job after several considerations...

this new job, location is rather far if compare with MCT which is only 15 minutes to travel to if you drive a car... ii take for about 1 hour to travel from my place to this new office... but, lots of new things to learn there... and i got a brand new working environment... all FEMALES environment... i mean my department, and they are mostly malay ladies. and they are all friendly and willing to teach & help whenever i need...

hope everyone in the old company is doing well & hope i can have a brighter & better future in the new company... i miss you gals & guys in mct, especially PPE, the department that i worked with, so, if there is a chance, let's arrange for a gathering, okie?

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

November's Quote


If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. And if they don't, they never were.


~Kahlil Gibran~

Sunday, October 12, 2008

October 12


October 12... used to be a special date for me... it was my anniversary with John, my ex boyfriend...

today, is the 1st time, i spend this day, with his status as my EX-bf... the feeling is really complicated... i don't know if i miss him or what, but, i know i am being too much affected by this date... today also the 6 months after we broke up... the date that i initiated for our break up was April 12... 6 months ago...

no... i don't really miss him i know... what i miss now is the feeling to have someone beside me, for me to take care of, and taking care of me too... for me to call whatever sweet nick name that i want... for me to hug anytime, anywhere, for me to call up to talk nothing, for me to say i love you whenever i want, for me to love, for me to miss, for me to plan our future together... a hope...

but, unfortunately, he is not the right person... he has never been the right person for me to spend my future with, but i refused to accept this fact, i tried my very best for him to be the right person of mine... but i have failed in this project... he is still the John that i knew 5 years ago... no... he has become worst i should said... it is okie... at least i have woke up from the fairy tales dream of mine now... i know, i should move on! if he doesn't meant for me for real, then let him go.. i shall find my Mr. Right in the right time, right place... my prince charming should be on his way...

i just dun wanna spend this date alone today... so i will have a date with a gf later... i am afraid if the emotions kill me again, i will do something crazy again... the things that happened during last mid-autumn shall not be repeated anymore...

goodbye John~ goodbye my love~from today onwards, you & October 12 shall mean nothing to me anymore~
keep moving layfun~! ganbatte~!

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Lazy Blogger => Layfun


too many to say... but really not in the mood to write down... so stress with what happened during the past month... i hope will be able to let go of the unhappiness soon...

should have write down more, but... maybe when i am really in the mood to write... too many feelings, too many to be written down... i don't know where to start actually...


Thursday, October 2, 2008

October's Quote


Being deeply loved by some one gives you strengths; loving someone deeply gives you courage~.


~Lao Tzu~

Monday, September 22, 2008

Things that I have learnt & have yet to learn...


I've learned .. That the best classroom in the world is at the feet of an elderly person.
I've learned .. That when you're in love, it shows.
I've learned .. That just one person saying to me, 'You've made my day!' makes my day.
I've learned .. That having a child fall asleep in your arms is one of the most peaceful feelings in the world.
I've learned .. That being kind is more important than being right.

I've learned .. That you should never say no to a gift from a child.
I've learned .. That I can always pray for someone when I don't have the strength to help him in some other way.
I've learned .. That no matter how serious your life requires you to be, everyone needs a friend to act goofy with.
I've learned .. That sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart to understand.

I've learned .. That simple walks with my father around the block on summer nights when I was a child did wonders for me as an adult.
I've learned .. That life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes. I've learned .. That we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for.
I've learned .. That money doesn't buy class.
I've learned .. That it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.

I've learned .. That under everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.
I've learned .. That to ignore the facts does not change the facts.
I've learned .. That when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.
I've learned .. That love, not time, heals all wounds.
I've learned .. That the easiest way for me to grow as a person is to surround myself with people smarter than I am.

I've learned .. That everyone you meet deserves to be greeted with a smile, but I've failed to do so nowadays...
I've learned .. That no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.
I've learned .... That life is tough, but I'm tougher.
I've learned .. That opportunities are never lost; someone will take the ones you miss.
I've learned .. That when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere.

I've learned .. That I wish I could have told my Mom that I love her one more time before she passed away. (I will do it as often as I can coz it is a blessing that my mum is still alive and living her life healthily for the family)
I've learned .. That one should keep his words both soft and tender, because tomorrow he may have to eat them.
I've learned .. That a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.
I've yet to learn.. That when your newly born grandchild holds your little finger in his little fist, that you're hooked for life.
I've learned .. That everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you're climbing it.

I've learned .. That the less time I have to work with, the more things I get done.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

如水 - 卫兰

期待过我们似细水
可惜蒸发出眼泪
明白你最近有些暂时伴侣
偷一刻午睡
彷佛专一使你极空虚
怀疑被你抱着我念着谁
无论你再好亦舍得失去

难过亦过难道我嫌损失未够多
早放手可减轻痛楚
不等泡沫给吹破
不想去知谁填补我

无悔在我还是我任你多麽差错
无谓去追问为何
深知告别损失非我
让情人离别似水清洗我

原谅你对着我说谎
出於好意的作状
明白你最近已经避谈近况
早不敢寄望
心中早把相爱如观光
情如瀑布泻下也未惊慌
心境已随着那水花得到释放

难过亦过难道我嫌损失未够多
早放手可减轻痛楚
不等泡沫给吹破
不想去知谁填补我

无悔在我还是我任你多麽差错
无谓去追问为何
深知告别损失非我
让情人离别似水清洗我

难过亦过难道我嫌损失未够多
早放手可减轻痛楚
不等泡沫给吹破
不想去知谁填补我

无悔在我还是我任你多麽差错
无谓去追问为何
深知告别损失非我
让情人离别似水清洗我

心中有涟漪吹过又回到最初平静去做我

Saturday, September 6, 2008

拔罐 Cupping Glass


i went for cupping glass treatment last night, as i felt super aching on my shoulder... and it was my very 1st time to do this treatment, and gosh! it was so pain! and my back looks so ugly... but most of all, hey, i am all right now! ALL CURED!!! amazing! i feel really good after the aunt did the treatment for me, even though i felt supa dupa pain and my shoulder now looks really ugly and terrible... but all WORTH!!! thank you aunty!!!

Friday, September 5, 2008

September's Quote


Love is not getting, but giving...


~Henry Van Dyke

Saturday, August 30, 2008

heart ache

how to describe this feeling? what will make some one's heart aches? when will some one feel heart aching?

last night, I've discovered something that i never thought it will ever happened... some one was gossiping bout what i did recently, and i knew too a lot more doesn't happy with me as i was not the chosen one, i don't care bout the a lot more, i don't care for that some one too, at least i am trying my VERY BEST not to bother bout that some one for quite a long period... but, the truth is cruel, that some one is some one that i never thought will gossip or comment about what i did & done, at least not to the friends around, but, it happened... i was shocked to know the truth... it beat my emotion to the lowest again...

i cried myself to sleep last night... and feel extremely sad for the whole night... but, someone cheered me up again this morning, by sending me sms & calling me up... thank you my dear... i really appreciate what you did for me...

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.


the song above, is kinda, nope, it is really suit for me... thanks baby to share this very meaningful song with me...

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Secret Love

secret love - buddha bar

想哭‏

相约在一个适合聊天的下午
分开很多年满以为没有包伏
我还打算回顾我们为何结束
还想问你是不是一个人住
当你微笑给我礼貌的招呼
当我想诉说这些年的感触
你却点满桌了我最爱的食物
介绍我看一本天文学的书
我想哭不敢哭难道这种相处
不像我们梦寐以求和幸福
走下去这一步是宽容还是痛苦
我想哭怎么哭完成爱情旅途
谈天说地是最理想的出路
谈音乐谈时事不说爱
若无其事原来是最狠的报复
当我想坦白我们的乐多于苦
你说水星它没有行、星好孤独
我才明白时间较分手还残酷
老朋友了再没资格不满足

What hurts the most?

today, baby shared a song with me early in the morning, she said the song is pretty suit for me... and it is in fact a nice song, a song that can tear my heart into pieces all over again... and if i need to cry out loud, i bet this song can helps a lot... hahahaha!!! Well, let's check it out!

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....


Friday, August 22, 2008

Sickness


what is this world that i am living here? why is the ppl likes to gossip so much? don't they have something better to do? can you guys just stop commenting about what i am about? i am so sick... be it my body or my soul...

went to see doctor last night, as i feel extremely cold & also dizziness in the office, especially when i was walking to the rest room and also to my HR office for document submission, i knew that my body is not feeling well and i decided to take the medical slip from my HR and went to see doctor at night after aunt finished with all her house work... after the doctor check for my body temperature and also heart beat, he told me i have fever and flu... and he asked me to rest at home by issued a medical certificate to me...


i have took my 3rd time medicine from last night till now... but, still feel not so well... maybe i haven't got myself to sweat yet... need to sweat a lot b4 i can fully recover... that's the usual steps for me to get well from the sickness... will cover myself with blanket again, off the fan, close the door & windows and SLEEP!!!


for the ppl who is not happy to see me sick again, well, i will take it as one kind of concern from you guys about my health, and thanks a lot for it, i hate when i am sick too, but that is out of my range of control... if possible, i do not wish to sick too... the feeling is terrible & horrible...


suppose to have a date with my baby to Marmalade Pantry on this coming Saturday, but if i can't recover by this evening, then most probably we have to cancel the date... so, i shall do my best in order to recover by this evening... GET WELL SOON LAYFUN! BE STRONG! and last but not least, i wish everyone that i care & care bout me, to have a healthy & happy weekend ahead!

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Uninvited


just knew that i haven been watching by some paparazzi from my office...

well, my blog is meant for myself to jot down things that i want to remember, for myself, not for paparazzi to watch my daily activities... and if you are not happy with what i am writing or posting, you can always choose not to read or visit to my site, i don't expect people who dislike or hate me to read what i write n post... after all, this is for my memories, not for others...

i used to care on how people might think or feel by the words i posted, i even closed the my older blog for a friend, whom i once really care a lot... really a lot... til my best friend why am i closing the old blog, i told them coz it has some problem occurred and i have no choice but to close it, and open another new blog... but, after so many things happened, i found that, all i need to do is to love myself, to care bout my own feeling, not others, where after all i have done, no one is appreciating it at all, all i get in the end is still negative, negative, and negative...

when you can't love anymore, that's when you start to hate... i don't hate people who i never love before... those i hate, were those i once loved with all my heart n soul... but had turned me down with their own reasons... which i am not interested to know it anymore... be it you were sincere to me or not at that time, as long as i know i was sincere, i did things from my heart, then everything happened before is not important anymore, it has become part of my memory... where it will fade off sooner or later... and i hate them coz they hate me, and their hatred has really affected me and made me hate them vice versa...

hatred is a feeling where drive people to look terrible, we will need to kill tonnes of cells to hate, and it will drive us to become uglier, older, and not welcome by other peoples, even if they did, just because they are as plastic as you, and me... we can't be friend to each other after we have been so plastic to each other... you once said it extremely loud behind me that you love plastic, but you never know how big was the impact after you said that... you were obviously referring to me at that time, and good, very good, till i decided i really have to drop this friendship... a fake and plastic friendship i had in singapore... to you, i am like a torn in your flesh, and to me, you are a torn in my flesh too, so, there is really no point for us to tell ourselves that we are friends... when we both hate each other so much...

to all the people who hates or dislikes me a lot, please stay away from my site, for those who wants to keep an eye on me by peeping my blog, my blog, my site, is 闲人与狗,不得内入, does not welcome for Paparazzi... please stay away or you will be sorry!!!

Thank you for being my readers and being care of what happened around me, but i don't need it from you, ms/mr. paparazzi... save it for all your other friends... if you have nothing better to do, sorry, i still don't welcome you to be my reader, becoz i don't care if you have anything to do, that's none of my business!

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Reunion?

just got a bad news from uncle chiang that, we will have a new boss as jennifer is transferred to QEM, CL will be in-charged for PPE, NPD & process engineer... gosh... that means, we will need to reunion with NPD again... what a tragic!!! how to work as a team again with her? how to deal with this new boss? i have no strength at all...

i think guys are just the same... as we are not in talking term for about 2 weeks, and even when i asked him something bout work, i did not talk like last time, sweet and nice, to him anymore... i am controlling my feeling towards him very hardly... perhaps he is thinking that he has lost his charm on me, so, this 2 days, he started to do something to draw my attention to him... well, i am controlling myself to be consistent on this issue... i do not want to drag myself back to the dillema anymore... so pain, where, he has never care on how pain am i... never once that he shows his concern on me when i was suffering in this dillema... so, now, who cares how you actually feel? i dont want to care anymore... LET ME GO!!!!

Sunday, August 10, 2008

That's How You Know - Amy Adams




Amy Adams Lyrics
That's How You Know Lyrics

So Close - Jon Mclaughlin





Jon McLaughlin Lyrics
So Close (from Enchanted) Lyrics

You're in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I'm with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams must die
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
Now you're beside me and look how far we've come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We're so close
To reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
Let's go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

Unfaithful - Rihanna




Rihanna Lyrics
Unfaithful Lyrics

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
Uh
Anymore (anymore)

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer (a murderer)

No no no no

Yeah yeah yeah

Take A Bow - Rihanna




Rihanna Lyrics
Take A Bow Lyrics

Hoo...

How 'bout a round of applause
Yeah...
Standing ovation
Oohhhh... yeah
Yeah yeah yeah yeah...

You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out

[Chorus]
Don't tell me you're sorry cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
Talkin' about, girl, I love you, you're the one
This just looks like the re-run
Please, what else is on

[Chorus]

And don't tell me you're sorry cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

And the award for the best liar goes to you
For making me believe that you could be
Faithful to me
Lets hear your speech ohh

How about a round of applause
A standing ovation

[Chorus]
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

But it's over now

Ever Ever After - Carrie Underwood

Storybook endings, fairy tales coming true
Deep down inside we want to believe they still do
And a secret is taught, it's our favourite part of the story
Let's just admit we all want to make it too

Ever ever after
If we just don't get it our own way
Ever ever after
It may only be a wish away

Start a new fashion, wear your heart on your sleeves
Sometimes you reach what's real just by making believe
Unafraid, unashamed
There is joy to be claimed in this world
You even might wind up being glad to be you

Ever ever after
Though the world will tell you it's not smart

Ever ever after
The world can be yours if you let your heart
Believe in ever after

No wonder your heart feels it's flying
Your head feels it's spinning
Each happy ending's a brand new beginning
Let yourself be enchanted, you just might break through

To ever ever after
Forever could even start today
Ever ever after
Maybe it's just one wish away
Your ever ever after

(I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss)

Oh, for ever ever after

Before He Cheats - Carrie Underwood

Right now he's probably slow dancing with a bleach blonde tramp,
and she's probably getting frisky...
right now, he's probably buying her some fruity little drink cause she can't shoot whiskey...

Right now, he's probably up behind her with a pool-stick, showing her how to shoot a combo...

And he don't know...

That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats...
I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires...

Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

Right now, she's probably up singing some
white-trash version of Shania karaoke..
Right now, she's probably saying "I'm drunk"
and he's a thinking that he's gonna get lucky,
Right now, he's probably dabbing on 3 dollars worth of that bathroom polo
And he don't know...

That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats,
I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires...

Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

I might've saved a little trouble for the next girl,
Cause the next time that he cheats...

Oh, you know it won't be on me!

Ohh... not on me...
Cause I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats...
I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires...

Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

Ohh.. Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats...

Ohh... before he cheats...

Wasted - Carrie Underwood

Standing at the back door
She tried to make it fast
One tear hit the hard wood
It fell like broken glass
She said sometimes love slips away
And you just can't get it back
Let's face it

For one split second
She almost turned around
But that would be like pouring rain drops
Back into a cloud
So she took another step and said
I see the way out and I'm gonna' take it

I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted

Another glass of whisky but it still don't kill the pain
So he stumbles to the sink and pours it down the drain
He says it's time to be a man and stop living for yesterday
Gotta face it.

Cause' I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted

Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain't spending no more time
Wasted

She kept drivin' along
Till the moon and the sun were floating side-by-side
He looked in the mirror and his eyes were clear
For the first time in a while

Hey, yeah,
Oh, I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted

Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain't spending no more time
Wasted

Oh, I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted

Yeah, yeah
Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain't spending no more time
Wasted

Friday, August 8, 2008

08.08.08

yea... today is 080808, a very special date, that came once every 100 years... and whats more, today is the opening ceremony for 2008 Beijing Olympics Game... wow!! what a great meaningful day...

well, something to jot down here is, today, the one who has not talk to me since Monday, finally talked with me today... the ambiance is weird, and we talked like strangers, as for me, i talked to him too after he talked to me in the morning... i have seek for him for some job's issue which was done by him, and i said "excuse me..." i don't even called his name... after that, he looked at me, as if expecting me to talk more to him... well, i did not do that... its meaningless now to do anything anymore... i need to let go, i need to move on... so, pls help me to be consistent... since you don't want to be close to me anymore, just be consistent to it... i don't mind it at all... i have gone through the lowest point of this relationship, no, we don't have any relationship ever since... i have gone through the lowest point in my life, and i belief, i can handle it better than before, and you need not feel guilty anymore (if you ever feel guilty on what u did to me).

have been in very low mood since Monday, and Tuesday, was the worst... i cried for all day after KF been retrenched... i was so sad... really really sad for what was happening... to me, she is the most capable in her department (aside from programming matters), but she is the one been chosen. honestly, i rather i am the one being retrenched... she called me and ask me why did my hand so cold when she shake hand and said good bye to me... she probably thought i was worrying for myself... actually, many people was thinking the same, Alvin was so worried bout me, he e-mailed to me to check if i am safe... frankly, it touches me so much... that means, i found some real n true frens here in MCT, not only plastics... hahaha!!! well, i was not worrying bout myself, as i somehow wish i will be retrench, so that i can leave this company soon... with no turning points... my hand was cold at that time is becoz of my heart felt cold... fed up to the management, fed up on the decision they made...

the low mood keep bothering me, i could not sleep well, kept on dreaming, fire, bombs, gossips... those are the things appeared in my dreams... so helpless, so lost... i dont know where i should go... but i wanna go! til late wednesday's late evening, i got a call, and it cheered me up... and of coz, my dear devil chef too played a very important role to cheer me up... not to forget i got someone to propose to me to be his gf, while i don't even know how he looks like... that's the funniest... hahahaha!!!

i am on half day leave today, as i went for something important for myself, and i am hoping i will be able to success on it! good luck to me! Happy 080808 to all!!!

Sunday, August 3, 2008

August's Quote


Only when we give joyfully, without hesitation or thought of gain, can we truly know what LOVE means.


~Leo Guscaglia~

Saturday outings... 020808

well, while worrying bout the retrenchment of MCT, i chose to be relax and enjoy the weekend to the full with my aunt's family...

woke up at 645am on saturday morning (yeap, 06:45AM, no kidding), and went to have our breakfast at McDonalds, Pionerr Mall, cause it is very hard to get uncle to have breakfast with us on Saturday as he is usually ot~ing at MCT... so, the while family, including me, went to McDonalds early in the morning, and enjoyd our breakfast there...

uncle actually had promised katherine to join her school's roller skating session to learn together with her, so, after the breakfast, we went to her school straight away, get her registered to the security guard, then all of us go in with her, to accompany her... the lesson was fun, the instructors are cute & pretty, i admire them so much as they can really walk under rollers... make my passion grow to learn roller skating too...

aunt, meimei & me stayed till 9am and left as i have another appointment with pretty vivian for my hair colouring treatment at her house. cookie is so cute (her new miniature red poodle) but too bad that i couldn't hold him as he is sick and under treatment, untouchable by outsiders... while coco is still the hyperactive kids, running, and playing around. this time, vivian choosen the burgundy brown colour for me and she also do a hidden red colour highlight for me,, i really love this new colour as this is the colour that i always want to have, more reddish... as i am a RED DEVIL (years ago), haha!!!

after finishing all, i went home to to get ready as we planned to join Chaiwoon & Melissa @ Singapore Discovery Center. We reached there around 1pm and bought the family package ticket @ $28 for 2 adults & 2 children (under 12 year-old), the package included admission fee, A SAFTI bus tour, and ticket for 2D movie, it was showing Great North, a documentary show and we booked for the 3.30pm show.

before we started to dicover the SDC, we went to the iDiscovery Cafe to have our lunch as i was supa dupa hungry at that moment... me & aunt was having a bowl of Katong Laksa for each person, and it taste good... i almost finished all... haha!!! while we were eating, Chaiwoon, Melissa & a friend of them (according to what they told me last night, is a quite handsome & very young guy) KaiWen (if i am not mistaken, as they never intro him to me wor... sobosob, :p) reached and they bought the $15 package for an extra 3D show, about 18minutes show, Monster Truck... wondering if thats nice? as the Great North was awesome, cool!!! i enjoyed the show very much... well, as we was in a rush, we didn't get to discover everything there, and i wish to return to this discovery center for another time, to fully discover everything there... maybe i will need to go by myself... but it would be cool if i come to discover it by myself, right? hehe~~

we rushed ourselves out to the car park after buying a yellow colour collar shirt for meimei (her belated birthday gift from me), as Sharon was waiting for us there, to send us home... all of us was supa dupa exhausted, aunt & meimei went for their evening nap, me on the other hand, reply to Alvin that i couldn't join the DoTA with them as i am totally out of batt... need to really rest at home... so tired, but i couldn't sleep at that time, so i watched the dvd that mum sent for me...

what a big spender, i have spent $25 for dinner on Friday night @ Marmalade Pantry with ChaiWoon & Melissa, oh yeah! not to forget that i have spent a great time with this 2 ladies on friday night, although the foods was supa expensive for us, but it was full of fun with this 2 ladies... non-stop talking, photo~ing... hahaha!!!

today will be going to Sally's house warming... need to spend again... hahaha!!! wish me luck that even if i get retrench, i will get some compensation from the company, altough thats really impossible, but try to have some hope, might make me feel better, perhaps...

Saturday, August 2, 2008

Retrenchment~~~

oh no... rumors are all around MCT and, Monday will be the deadline... gosh! retrenchment! and i might be on the list... how should i react if i am the chosen one? i am actually afraid i might not take it if that really happen, and i might ended up crying in the office, making a shameful moment for myself, for one last time in PPE... gosh, thats the last thing i wish it will happened... if possible, i wanna hold my tears, and keep it to myself only... maybe can cry to baby... but definitely not other ppl in PPE...

i have been in MCT since Dec 06, unforgettable memories i had in MCT, been doing so many things that i never thought that i would do it, but i tried during this period...

i am confused sometimes, i am afraid of losing job, but on the other hand, i do hope this can help me to totally cut myself off from MCT... be retrenched, kicked out of MCT and from this f*cking situation i faced here in MCT... the f*cking environment that been bothering me for so long time... i often wanna run away from it, but have not been really consistent into it... so, if it happen to be me, i should feel happy on the other hand... coz, finally, i am leaving... leaving all the bad memories behind of me and start another new chapter of life, again... maybe its time for me to get back to KL to be with my family again...

god bless, bless me and the person who i care in MCT, to be able to go thru everything/ anything that might happen on next Monday...

Good luck everyone!!!

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Birthday Gift from MCT

went down to submit OT approval form to my HR, and CaiRong told me she has got something for me, and passed the gift voucher to me...


it is the birthday voucher from the company, i got a FM radio last year with $15 NTUC voucher... this year, we only got $20 NTUC voucher... well, better than nothing... $20... can buy lots of Chezzels, Pringles, Twisties.... and so on... muahahahhahahahaha!!! Am going to gain more weight if I really buy them all.... better to buy some prunes & prune juice.... >.^


Our Mighty Technician - Mr Alex Pang

Alex - repairing Uncle Chiang's Nokie phone

a moment ago, Alex was helping Uncle Chiang to repair his phone, as his phone was drop on the floor, and caused it's speacker dropped.
with very high expectation with Alex, he finally got the phone repaired and function well after about 30 minutes of hand-shaking works.
i promised him that i will write this on my blog if he managed to repair the phone... so, Alex, this is for you, a complimentary blog to praise the mighty Alex of PPE/ CAM of Microcircuit Technology (S) Pte Ltd.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Freezing cold in PPE


it is extremely cold today in the office... maybe it is becoz i have not fully recover yet... feel so lazy again and really wanna have a good sleep later when i reach home...


hope that tomorrow will be better for me...

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

I'm on Sick Leave... again... :-s


yea... today am on sick leave again... i felt extremely not comfortable the whole day in the office, felt extremely cold although i was in my blue jacket, and not in the mood at all, i almost wanna start a fight with Alex, he was not feeling well too... and we both didn't seem to really in the mood to chat, but to argue... sorry Alex if i ever step on your tail, but i don't really mean that, just not in the mood... and so, i decided to get the medical chit from HR and went to see doc at night.

i told doctor that i don't feel good after i came back from the rainy BBQ, and i felt extremely cold whenever i am in an air-condition room... doctor then measured my body temperature and told me that i have fever, then he gave me a day to rest at home...

and so, here i am, sitting at home, writing my blog here, to express my feeling... i feel tired, sleepy, dizzy... but overall, i am still okie, as there is someone who is really care of me, shower me with all his cares, and make me really feel happy... he will send me text messages whenever he has the time, and he also called me up, to check if i am already recover from the fever... i feel so good for being pampered by him... thank you my dear...

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Blue Moment


i know that he is not in a good mood... definitely something bad happened on him, and according to him, i am so unlucky to get to see this side of him, coz normally he wont let ppl see this side of him...

well, i was thinking, am i really that unlucky? not really, to be positive, i am glad that you show this side of you to me, coz that means you treat me as a real friend, and you are sincere to me... although i still have some doubts in you (i do coz, i knew something that you did "behind" me), but i am glad that you willing to show other side of you to me.

my dear, i hope you are getting better by now... and as usual, we wont be contacting each other on Sunday, i don't know why, but if you choose not to contact me on weekends, its up to you... just enjoy your life always!

BBQ @ Raining Evening 190708


oh... what a turn off... our BBQ of the year, has ended up in a heavy rain... only lasted for less than 4 hours... *sobsob*

as agreed, we (me, bp, alvin & wife, lirong, mengmeng & alex) meet up at Pioneer mall for the last minutes shopping... we brought drinks, hams, sausages, plastic cups, spoon, canned fruits, and a big container at last for the canned fruits punch. and we managed to reach our destination at 415pm... our delivery man was there waiting for us for about 15 minutes, and we was slightly late, and i felt so shame on it actually... :-s


xiaojian was the 1st to arrive after our arrival, followed by cecil, and other ppl like Ms Jen & her family, Leon & family, colleagues from QA dept (i dont know their name), Chaiwoon & Melissa, Yao & his son, Johnson & his pretty 'gf' - his daugther, Jane & Family, and last but not least, Shawn, the last who arrived and bring us this heavy rain, hahaha!!! pity to him that he didn't get to eat anything and we started to run for our life to avoid getting wet in the rain...

the party ended at around 8pm... and i reached home b4 9pm, finished shower at 920pm, then i online and see if anybody is free to chat with me... found no one at first, and then alvin sign in, and we talk for awhile... afterall, the party is not so perfect, but we still get to enjoy especially those who arrived early...

Thursday, July 17, 2008

退后


天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后
并没有更自由
酸酸的空气
嗅出我们的距离
一幕锥心的结局
像呼吸般无法停息

抽屉泛黄的日记
榨干了回忆
那笑容是傻气
你我的过去
被顺时针的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
粗心的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空

我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里待续

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Horrible Morning


today, as usual, going to work in the morning... while reached office, greetings my dearest baby at work, and prepared for my breakfast, and start work...


at about 0830, uncle Jason ran up and shouting chemical on fire! we was shocked and uncle Chiang advised all of us to leave the company premises before anything bad happened... i was very much afraid as i once suffered for the fire night mare when i was a teenager... my heart pumping extremely fast and i was nervous too... i was thinking if i should wait for Alex as he has left his bag and went out from our office, then a girl from Drilling called to her boss, and her boss was asking her to quickly leave the office, so i decided to go down with Kumar at last...


we meet up with SuiLee & Loo at the entrance of Drilling dept and saw many of the workers gathered at the area, including some QA staffs as well, after 15 minutes of waiting at that area, uncle Chiang came to us and tell us that the fire is managed to be extinguished by our colleagues and the fire fighter shall turn up later, so, it is safe for us to return to work...


after we went back to our office, i have an urge to sms to Nelson to tell him about this incident, and i sms to him without any hesitation, but, he was too busy to return me a text... until i send him another sms after lunch hour, then he called me up, and told me that he is very busy with works... i was kinda affected by the way he did not return me a msg, but feel better after talking with him... i think i must control my feeling... don't wish to make things complicated as i am planning to proceed with my UK trip...

Sunday, July 6, 2008

I cut my hair again...


yea! i had my hair cut again today... after a bout 2 months of cutting it short, i make it slightly shorter with more layered done by pretty Vivian... hope my friends & family at KL will like this new hair style of mine... i really miss you guys so much...



just received somethings from my dearest sister at UK, a belated birthday card with a silver necklace, and a shirt from Topshop... oh... mei... i really love the shirt and necklace from you, but most of all, i love the birthday card the most... i love you and really miss u much!!! may god bless you and tom with lots of happiness!!! muacks!!!

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Something's missed out...

so... i was expecting that he won't be sending me any sms anymore... and as expected... i din get any single sms from him since morning up till now... i am crazy that i actually waiting for him to sms to me... see... i knew, if i don't control myself, it will end up to be another disaster in my life... and i know just how to stop him to approach to me... and looks like it really works... hahaha!!! nevermind if he is the easily give up type... i don't need a guy who do not have the patient in me...

today just booked for the bus ticket from First Coach at Novena Square... will be going home on 10 July at 7pm... miss all the family and friends in KL so much... and worry bout my dearest there... really hope to see them soon...

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Lonely Mi...

i think i am having some emotional problems... i feel extremely lonely nowadays...

i miss days with John, miss days when he is still my darling, and i am so desperately to find one to replace him recently... i am so lonely...

i have known someone who is quite care of me, but i know that he has no intention to build up a relationship with me, but i found that i am quite enjoy to hang out with him, and i have addicted to exchange sms with him almost every day, especially on Monday, and also i enjoy talking with him very much... he will call me when i told him i feel bored, erm... if he is free... i don't know why but i just can't help but to start missing him when i don't get his sms... i think this is because of the emotional problems i have recently... maybe its because he is here for me when i am lonely and i just let myself to enjoy the care that he provided for me... after what happened one year ago, i should never ever let myself to fall into a guy, or to develop my feeling so easily anymore...

oh god!!! please give me strength to face this loneliness and overtake the emotional me as soon as possible... i am so weak that i really need a big hug... maybe can ask from baby at work... Ganbatte LayFun!!!

July's Quote


When men and women are able to respect and accept their differences, then love has a chance to blossom.


~John Gray~

Sunday, June 29, 2008

Saturday outings... 280608


went out for the whole day on Saturday...

had dated with ChaiWoon that we will be going to try out the restaurant at Holland Village, which actually, a new friend of mine is working there as a chef, so, after confirming everything, we decided to go there for lunch and also meet this new friend of mine there for the 1st time...

we had great lunch served by this friend - Nelson, and we had spent the whole afternoon there till 7pm. We left after i get my baby's text msg that she will be meeting up with me at BPP at 7.30pm...

i met up with baby at BPP around 8pm and we had our dinner at Delifrance bistro and after the dinner, we had a cup of tea at Starbucks... we have not been catching up with each other for a long period and we had a good time spending with each other...

thanks to ChaiWoon, Nelson and most of all, Baby for the companion on my Saturday...

Sunday, June 22, 2008

I Wish You Love


Goodbye...
No use leading with our chins...
This is where our story ends...
Never lovers, ever friends...

Goodbye...
Let our heart call it a day...
But before you walk away...
I sincerely want to say...

I wish you blue birds in the Spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this...
I wish you love...

And in July, a lemonade...
To cold you in some leafy glade
I wish you health, but more than wealth
I wish you love...

My breaking heart and I agree...
That you and I could never be...
So with my best, my very best
I set you (myself) free...

I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all, when snowflakes fall...
I wish you love...



Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Sickening News


today, I've revealed another ugly fact that happened around me... why oh why??? why can't people be more faithful to their very own partner? why??? okie.. i have not been faithful enough, and i do not want to cheat myself that i don't hold any responsibility for what happened before, but then, hey, since you are married, can't you be more faithful to your wife or to your partner? why do you wanna do such disgusting action behind her? i really look down on you! i am so disappointed to know this happening around me again... my friend, i am sorry that i can't tell you face to face what did i know, i think it is better not to let you know... perhaps, he will realize sooner or later, and he will be faithful to you again in the future... i hate people who has been not loyal to their own partner, and that's including myself... but I am learning to love myself back, as i knew, i didn't do that purposely... i am not innocent especially after i knew the truth, but i did not do everything intentionally... that is something i am very clear about...

just when can i leave this country? gosh!!!!!

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Overnight at McD


the 2 of us are really crazy... we spent the whole night at McD at Pioneer Mall...

Friday, i was on medical leave due to back pain, running nose & cough that made me can't sleep well for few weeks... it is either i can't sleep well every night and wake up several time in the mid-night, or the worst is, i can't sleep at all, til 2am in the morning... the doctor had issued one day medical cert for me so that i can have a good rest at home... and i did have good rest and sleep for almost the whole day... and doing some laundry too at home...

Chaiwoon msn-ed mi to go for a swim after her working hour, so i agree to go with her and we went there at 7pm... then after the swimming session, we decided to have a drink at McD nearby my house and we had called my colleague, BP Tan to join us as he is staying somewhere nearby and, i have promised him to introduce chaiwoon to him...

i went off after he reached as i have something to do at home, and i promised to return as soon as possible, coz i feel bad to left the two strangers alone... i returned after 30 minutes and found them talking happily with each other... and then i found out that they were college mate before... oh... what a small world... and they actually knew each other 8 years ago... i am truly happy for bring them for the meet up, as meeting up with old friend is truly exciting... and we chit-chatted till 2am and we let BP went back home coz, we girls still have lots to catch up with each other...

and these two crazy lady was sitting at McD till 730am this morning, then decided to go home after we took our breakfast... and guess what? we don't manage to sleep and we talked again on MSN for about another hour, and finally, i went for lunch with aunt and after i finished my lunch, i finally feel the sleepy bug biting me, and i get myself to sleep for about 2 hours... later will need to have dinner with some colleagues from MCT and i hope i get to sleep well tonight... tomorrow will have BBQ... ehehheheheh!!!

Monday, June 9, 2008

The Reason


i just discovered the reason why something not up to me happened on my day... and found it really heart-aching, to know that something happened on that day that touched me, was actually, might be a trap for me to fall in... gosh... just how can i stop trusting people around me?

Sunday, June 8, 2008

My New Laptop


okie... i bought a new laptop and i am of coz currently very much addicted to it... and because of this new laptop, i slept at 4am dis morning... partly also cause by a fren who was chatting with me too last nite... and guess what? we chatted till 4am... gosh... and i am very sleepy for the whole day...

will talk more bout this new toy of mine soon... good nite everybody!!!

Duanwu Festival 端午节

Dragon Boat Racing

Dragon Boat Festival racing in Macau
Zongzi: Rice dumpling with red bean filling

Zongzi: Rice dumpling with red bean filling

The Duanwu Festival is a Chinese traditional and statutory holiday. It is a public holiday in mainland China[1][2] and in Taiwan, where it is known as the "Duanwu Festival". It is also a public holiday in Hong Kong and Macau, where it is known as Duen Ng Festival. Its alternative name in English is "Dragon Boat Festival", after one of the traditional activities for the holiday.

The Duanwu Festival has also been celebrated in other East Asian nations. For their equivalent or related celebrations, see Dano (Korean festival), Tết Đoan Ngọ (Vietnam), and Kodomo no hi (Japan).

The Duanwu Festival occurs on the fifth day of the fifth month of the Chinese calendar, giving rise to the alternative name of Double Fifth [3]. In 2008, this falls on 8 June. The focus of the celebrations include eating zongzi, which are large rice wraps, drink realgar wine, and race dragon boats.

History

Origins

The Duanwu Festival originated in ancient China. There are a number of theories about the origins of the festival. Today, the most commonly accepted version relates to the death of poet Qu Yuan in 278 BC, detailed below. There are, however, a number of competing theories.

Qu Yuan

The most well-known traditional story holds that the festival commemorates the death of poet Qu Yuan (c. 340 BC - 278 BC) of the ancient state of Chu, in the Warring States Period of the Zhou Dynasty. A descendant of the Chu royal house, Qu served in high offices. However, when the king decided to ally with the increasingly powerful state of Qin, Qu was banished for opposing the alliance. During his exile, Qu Yuan wrote a great deal of poetry, for which he is now remembered. Twenty-eight years later, Qin conquered the Chu capital. In despair. Qu Yuan committed suicide by drowning himself in the Miluo River on the fifth day of the fifth month.

It is said that the local people, who admired him, threw food into the river to feed the fish so that they would not eat Qu Yuan's body. This is said to be the origin of zongzi. The local people were also said to have paddled out on boats, either to scare the fish away or to retrieve his body. This is said to be the origin of dragon boat racing.

Wu Zixu

Despite the modern popularity of the Qu Yuan origin theory, in the former territory of the state of Wu the festival commemorated Wu Zixu (526 BC - 484 BC). Like Qu Yuan, Wu Zixu was a loyal advisor whose advice was ignored by the king to the detriment of the kingdom. Wu Zixu was forced to commit suicide by the king Fuchai, with his body thrown into the river on the fifth day of the fifth month. After his death, Wu Zixu was revered as a river god. In places such as Suzhou, in Jiangsu province, Wu Zixu is remembered during the Duanwu Festival to this day.

Pre-existing holiday

Modern researchers have theorised that the commemoration of Qu Yuan or Wu Zixu were superimposed onto an existing holiday tradition, but has subsequently overtaken the original significance.

One theory points to the traditional rituals of the Duanwu Festival, which mostly relate to avoiding diseases. Thus, it is said, Duanwu Festival originates from rituals designed to avoid disease during the mid-summer months (corresponding to the fifth month of the Chinese calendar).

Another theory, advocated by Wen Yiduo, is that the Duanwu Festival had its origins in dragon worship. Support is drawn from two key traditions of the festival: the zongzi and dragon boat racing. Throwing food (zongzi) into the river is said to represent offerings to the dragon king, while dragon boat racing comes from the worship of the dragon, combined with the tradition of visiting friends and family on canoes.

One view is that the festival is a celebration that is characteristic of ancient Chinese agrarian society: the celebration of the harvest of winter wheat. Offerings would be made to gods and spirits on this date: in the ancient Yue, dragon kings; in the ancient Chu, Qu Yuan; in the ancient Wu, Wu Zixu (as a river god); in ancient Korea, mountain gods (see Dano (Korean festival)). As interactions between different regions increased, these similar festivals were eventually merged under the same name.

In the early years of the Republic of China, Duan Wu was also celebrated as "Poets' Day," due to Qu Yuan's status as China's first poet of personal renown.

Activities

The three most widespread activities for the Duanwu Festival are eating (and preparing) zongzi, an angular rice ball wrapped in reed or bamboo leaves; drinking realgar wine, and racing dragon boats.

Other common activities include hanging up icons of Zhong Kui (a mythic guardian figure), hanging up mugwort and calamus, taking long walks, and wearing perfumed medicine bags. Other traditional activities including a game of making an egg stand at noon, and writing spells. All of these activities, together with the drinking of realgar wine, are designed to ward off disease or evil.