Showing posts with label ugly truth. Show all posts
Showing posts with label ugly truth. Show all posts

Saturday, August 30, 2008

heart ache

how to describe this feeling? what will make some one's heart aches? when will some one feel heart aching?

last night, I've discovered something that i never thought it will ever happened... some one was gossiping bout what i did recently, and i knew too a lot more doesn't happy with me as i was not the chosen one, i don't care bout the a lot more, i don't care for that some one too, at least i am trying my VERY BEST not to bother bout that some one for quite a long period... but, the truth is cruel, that some one is some one that i never thought will gossip or comment about what i did & done, at least not to the friends around, but, it happened... i was shocked to know the truth... it beat my emotion to the lowest again...

i cried myself to sleep last night... and feel extremely sad for the whole night... but, someone cheered me up again this morning, by sending me sms & calling me up... thank you my dear... i really appreciate what you did for me...

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.


the song above, is kinda, nope, it is really suit for me... thanks baby to share this very meaningful song with me...

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Sickening News


today, I've revealed another ugly fact that happened around me... why oh why??? why can't people be more faithful to their very own partner? why??? okie.. i have not been faithful enough, and i do not want to cheat myself that i don't hold any responsibility for what happened before, but then, hey, since you are married, can't you be more faithful to your wife or to your partner? why do you wanna do such disgusting action behind her? i really look down on you! i am so disappointed to know this happening around me again... my friend, i am sorry that i can't tell you face to face what did i know, i think it is better not to let you know... perhaps, he will realize sooner or later, and he will be faithful to you again in the future... i hate people who has been not loyal to their own partner, and that's including myself... but I am learning to love myself back, as i knew, i didn't do that purposely... i am not innocent especially after i knew the truth, but i did not do everything intentionally... that is something i am very clear about...

just when can i leave this country? gosh!!!!!