Uninvited

just knew that i haven been watching by some paparazzi from my office...

well, my blog is meant for myself to jot down things that i want to remember, for myself, not for paparazzi to watch my daily activities... and if you are not happy with what i am writing or posting, you can always choose not to read or visit to my site, i don't expect people who dislike or hate me to read what i write n post... after all, this is for my memories, not for others...

i used to care on how people might think or feel by the words i posted, i even closed the my older blog for a friend, whom i once really care a lot... really a lot... til my best friend why am i closing the old blog, i told them coz it has some problem occurred and i have no choice but to close it, and open another new blog... but, after so many things happened, i found that, all i need to do is to love myself, to care bout my own feeling, not others, where after all i have done, no one is appreciating it at all, all i get in the end is still negative, negative, and negative...

when you can't love anymore, that's when you start to hate... i don't hate people who i never love before... those i hate, were those i once loved with all my heart n soul... but had turned me down with their own reasons... which i am not interested to know it anymore... be it you were sincere to me or not at that time, as long as i know i was sincere, i did things from my heart, then everything happened before is not important anymore, it has become part of my memory... where it will fade off sooner or later... and i hate them coz they hate me, and their hatred has really affected me and made me hate them vice versa...

hatred is a feeling where drive people to look terrible, we will need to kill tonnes of cells to hate, and it will drive us to become uglier, older, and not welcome by other peoples, even if they did, just because they are as plastic as you, and me... we can't be friend to each other after we have been so plastic to each other... you once said it extremely loud behind me that you love plastic, but you never know how big was the impact after you said that... you were obviously referring to me at that time, and good, very good, till i decided i really have to drop this friendship... a fake and plastic friendship i had in singapore... to you, i am like a torn in your flesh, and to me, you are a torn in my flesh too, so, there is really no point for us to tell ourselves that we are friends... when we both hate each other so much...

to all the people who hates or dislikes me a lot, please stay away from my site, for those who wants to keep an eye on me by peeping my blog, my blog, my site, is 闲人与狗，不得内入, does not welcome for Paparazzi... please stay away or you will be sorry!!!

Thank you for being my readers and being care of what happened around me, but i don't need it from you, ms/mr. paparazzi... save it for all your other friends... if you have nothing better to do, sorry, i still don't welcome you to be my reader, becoz i don't care if you have anything to do, that's none of my business!