how to describe this feeling? what will make some one's heart aches? when will some one feel heart aching?
last night, I've discovered something that i never thought it will ever happened... some one was gossiping bout what i did recently, and i knew too a lot more doesn't happy with me as i was not the chosen one, i don't care bout the a lot more, i don't care for that some one too, at least i am trying my VERY BEST not to bother bout that some one for quite a long period... but, the truth is cruel, that some one is some one that i never thought will gossip or comment about what i did & done, at least not to the friends around, but, it happened... i was shocked to know the truth... it beat my emotion to the lowest again...
i cried myself to sleep last night... and feel extremely sad for the whole night... but, someone cheered me up again this morning, by sending me sms & calling me up... thank you my dear... i really appreciate what you did for me...
Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
the song above, is kinda, nope, it is really suit for me... thanks baby to share this very meaningful song with me...
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
想哭
相约在一个适合聊天的下午
分开很多年满以为没有包伏
我还打算回顾我们为何结束
还想问你是不是一个人住
当你微笑给我礼貌的招呼
当我想诉说这些年的感触
你却点满桌了我最爱的食物
介绍我看一本天文学的书
我想哭不敢哭难道这种相处
不像我们梦寐以求和幸福
走下去这一步是宽容还是痛苦
我想哭怎么哭完成爱情旅途
谈天说地是最理想的出路
谈音乐谈时事不说爱
若无其事原来是最狠的报复
当我想坦白我们的乐多于苦
你说水星它没有行、星好孤独
我才明白时间较分手还残酷
老朋友了再没资格不满足
What hurts the most?
today, baby shared a song with me early in the morning, she said the song is pretty suit for me... and it is in fact a nice song, a song that can tear my heart into pieces all over again... and if i need to cry out loud, i bet this song can helps a lot... hahahaha!!! Well, let's check it out!
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....
Friday, August 22, 2008
Sickness
what is this world that i am living here? why is the ppl likes to gossip so much? don't they have something better to do? can you guys just stop commenting about what i am about? i am so sick... be it my body or my soul...
went to see doctor last night, as i feel extremely cold & also dizziness in the office, especially when i was walking to the rest room and also to my HR office for document submission, i knew that my body is not feeling well and i decided to take the medical slip from my HR and went to see doctor at night after aunt finished with all her house work... after the doctor check for my body temperature and also heart beat, he told me i have fever and flu... and he asked me to rest at home by issued a medical certificate to me...
i have took my 3rd time medicine from last night till now... but, still feel not so well... maybe i haven't got myself to sweat yet... need to sweat a lot b4 i can fully recover... that's the usual steps for me to get well from the sickness... will cover myself with blanket again, off the fan, close the door & windows and SLEEP!!!
for the ppl who is not happy to see me sick again, well, i will take it as one kind of concern from you guys about my health, and thanks a lot for it, i hate when i am sick too, but that is out of my range of control... if possible, i do not wish to sick too... the feeling is terrible & horrible...
suppose to have a date with my baby to Marmalade Pantry on this coming Saturday, but if i can't recover by this evening, then most probably we have to cancel the date... so, i shall do my best in order to recover by this evening... GET WELL SOON LAYFUN! BE STRONG! and last but not least, i wish everyone that i care & care bout me, to have a healthy & happy weekend ahead!
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Uninvited
just knew that i haven been watching by some paparazzi from my office...
well, my blog is meant for myself to jot down things that i want to remember, for myself, not for paparazzi to watch my daily activities... and if you are not happy with what i am writing or posting, you can always choose not to read or visit to my site, i don't expect people who dislike or hate me to read what i write n post... after all, this is for my memories, not for others...
i used to care on how people might think or feel by the words i posted, i even closed the my older blog for a friend, whom i once really care a lot... really a lot... til my best friend why am i closing the old blog, i told them coz it has some problem occurred and i have no choice but to close it, and open another new blog... but, after so many things happened, i found that, all i need to do is to love myself, to care bout my own feeling, not others, where after all i have done, no one is appreciating it at all, all i get in the end is still negative, negative, and negative...
when you can't love anymore, that's when you start to hate... i don't hate people who i never love before... those i hate, were those i once loved with all my heart n soul... but had turned me down with their own reasons... which i am not interested to know it anymore... be it you were sincere to me or not at that time, as long as i know i was sincere, i did things from my heart, then everything happened before is not important anymore, it has become part of my memory... where it will fade off sooner or later... and i hate them coz they hate me, and their hatred has really affected me and made me hate them vice versa...
hatred is a feeling where drive people to look terrible, we will need to kill tonnes of cells to hate, and it will drive us to become uglier, older, and not welcome by other peoples, even if they did, just because they are as plastic as you, and me... we can't be friend to each other after we have been so plastic to each other... you once said it extremely loud behind me that you love plastic, but you never know how big was the impact after you said that... you were obviously referring to me at that time, and good, very good, till i decided i really have to drop this friendship... a fake and plastic friendship i had in singapore... to you, i am like a torn in your flesh, and to me, you are a torn in my flesh too, so, there is really no point for us to tell ourselves that we are friends... when we both hate each other so much...
to all the people who hates or dislikes me a lot, please stay away from my site, for those who wants to keep an eye on me by peeping my blog, my blog, my site, is 闲人与狗，不得内入, does not welcome for Paparazzi... please stay away or you will be sorry!!!
Thank you for being my readers and being care of what happened around me, but i don't need it from you, ms/mr. paparazzi... save it for all your other friends... if you have nothing better to do, sorry, i still don't welcome you to be my reader, becoz i don't care if you have anything to do, that's none of my business!
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Reunion?
just got a bad news from uncle chiang that, we will have a new boss as jennifer is transferred to QEM, CL will be in-charged for PPE, NPD & process engineer... gosh... that means, we will need to reunion with NPD again... what a tragic!!! how to work as a team again with her? how to deal with this new boss? i have no strength at all...
i think guys are just the same... as we are not in talking term for about 2 weeks, and even when i asked him something bout work, i did not talk like last time, sweet and nice, to him anymore... i am controlling my feeling towards him very hardly... perhaps he is thinking that he has lost his charm on me, so, this 2 days, he started to do something to draw my attention to him... well, i am controlling myself to be consistent on this issue... i do not want to drag myself back to the dillema anymore... so pain, where, he has never care on how pain am i... never once that he shows his concern on me when i was suffering in this dillema... so, now, who cares how you actually feel? i dont want to care anymore... LET ME GO!!!!
i think guys are just the same... as we are not in talking term for about 2 weeks, and even when i asked him something bout work, i did not talk like last time, sweet and nice, to him anymore... i am controlling my feeling towards him very hardly... perhaps he is thinking that he has lost his charm on me, so, this 2 days, he started to do something to draw my attention to him... well, i am controlling myself to be consistent on this issue... i do not want to drag myself back to the dillema anymore... so pain, where, he has never care on how pain am i... never once that he shows his concern on me when i was suffering in this dillema... so, now, who cares how you actually feel? i dont want to care anymore... LET ME GO!!!!
Sunday, August 10, 2008
So Close - Jon Mclaughlin
Jon McLaughlin Lyrics
So Close (from Enchanted) Lyrics
You're in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I'm with you
So close to feeling alive
A life goes by
Romantic dreams must die
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close
So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
Now you're beside me and look how far we've come
So far we are so close
How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We're so close
To reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
Let's go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far
Unfaithful - Rihanna
Rihanna Lyrics
Unfaithful Lyrics
Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company
He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true
And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well
Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
Uh
Anymore (anymore)
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer (a murderer)
No no no no
Yeah yeah yeah
Take A Bow - Rihanna
Rihanna Lyrics
Take A Bow Lyrics
Hoo...
How 'bout a round of applause
Yeah...
Standing ovation
Oohhhh... yeah
Yeah yeah yeah yeah...
You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out
[Chorus]
Don't tell me you're sorry cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow
Grab your clothes and get gone
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
Talkin' about, girl, I love you, you're the one
This just looks like the re-run
Please, what else is on
[Chorus]
And don't tell me you're sorry cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow
And the award for the best liar goes to you
For making me believe that you could be
Faithful to me
Lets hear your speech ohh
How about a round of applause
A standing ovation
[Chorus]
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow
But it's over now
Ever Ever After - Carrie Underwood
Storybook endings, fairy tales coming true
Deep down inside we want to believe they still do
And a secret is taught, it's our favourite part of the story
Let's just admit we all want to make it too
Ever ever after
If we just don't get it our own way
Ever ever after
It may only be a wish away
Start a new fashion, wear your heart on your sleeves
Sometimes you reach what's real just by making believe
Unafraid, unashamed
There is joy to be claimed in this world
You even might wind up being glad to be you
Ever ever after
Though the world will tell you it's not smart
Ever ever after
The world can be yours if you let your heart
Believe in ever after
No wonder your heart feels it's flying
Your head feels it's spinning
Each happy ending's a brand new beginning
Let yourself be enchanted, you just might break through
To ever ever after
Forever could even start today
Ever ever after
Maybe it's just one wish away
Your ever ever after
(I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss)
Oh, for ever ever after
Deep down inside we want to believe they still do
And a secret is taught, it's our favourite part of the story
Let's just admit we all want to make it too
Ever ever after
If we just don't get it our own way
Ever ever after
It may only be a wish away
Start a new fashion, wear your heart on your sleeves
Sometimes you reach what's real just by making believe
Unafraid, unashamed
There is joy to be claimed in this world
You even might wind up being glad to be you
Ever ever after
Though the world will tell you it's not smart
Ever ever after
The world can be yours if you let your heart
Believe in ever after
No wonder your heart feels it's flying
Your head feels it's spinning
Each happy ending's a brand new beginning
Let yourself be enchanted, you just might break through
To ever ever after
Forever could even start today
Ever ever after
Maybe it's just one wish away
Your ever ever after
(I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss)
Oh, for ever ever after
Before He Cheats - Carrie Underwood
Right now he's probably slow dancing with a bleach blonde tramp,
and she's probably getting frisky...
right now, he's probably buying her some fruity little drink cause she can't shoot whiskey...
Right now, he's probably up behind her with a pool-stick, showing her how to shoot a combo...
And he don't know...
That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats...
I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires...
Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.
Right now, she's probably up singing some
white-trash version of Shania karaoke..
Right now, she's probably saying "I'm drunk"
and he's a thinking that he's gonna get lucky,
Right now, he's probably dabbing on 3 dollars worth of that bathroom polo
And he don't know...
That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats,
I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires...
Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.
I might've saved a little trouble for the next girl,
Cause the next time that he cheats...
Oh, you know it won't be on me!
Ohh... not on me...
Cause I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats...
I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires...
Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.
Ohh.. Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats...
Ohh... before he cheats...
and she's probably getting frisky...
right now, he's probably buying her some fruity little drink cause she can't shoot whiskey...
Right now, he's probably up behind her with a pool-stick, showing her how to shoot a combo...
And he don't know...
That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats...
I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires...
Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.
Right now, she's probably up singing some
white-trash version of Shania karaoke..
Right now, she's probably saying "I'm drunk"
and he's a thinking that he's gonna get lucky,
Right now, he's probably dabbing on 3 dollars worth of that bathroom polo
And he don't know...
That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats,
I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires...
Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.
I might've saved a little trouble for the next girl,
Cause the next time that he cheats...
Oh, you know it won't be on me!
Ohh... not on me...
Cause I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats...
I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires...
Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.
Ohh.. Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats...
Ohh... before he cheats...
Wasted - Carrie Underwood
Standing at the back door
She tried to make it fast
One tear hit the hard wood
It fell like broken glass
She said sometimes love slips away
And you just can't get it back
Let's face it
For one split second
She almost turned around
But that would be like pouring rain drops
Back into a cloud
So she took another step and said
I see the way out and I'm gonna' take it
I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted
Another glass of whisky but it still don't kill the pain
So he stumbles to the sink and pours it down the drain
He says it's time to be a man and stop living for yesterday
Gotta face it.
Cause' I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted
Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain't spending no more time
Wasted
She kept drivin' along
Till the moon and the sun were floating side-by-side
He looked in the mirror and his eyes were clear
For the first time in a while
Hey, yeah,
Oh, I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted
Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain't spending no more time
Wasted
Oh, I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted
Yeah, yeah
Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain't spending no more time
Wasted
She tried to make it fast
One tear hit the hard wood
It fell like broken glass
She said sometimes love slips away
And you just can't get it back
Let's face it
For one split second
She almost turned around
But that would be like pouring rain drops
Back into a cloud
So she took another step and said
I see the way out and I'm gonna' take it
I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted
Another glass of whisky but it still don't kill the pain
So he stumbles to the sink and pours it down the drain
He says it's time to be a man and stop living for yesterday
Gotta face it.
Cause' I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted
Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain't spending no more time
Wasted
She kept drivin' along
Till the moon and the sun were floating side-by-side
He looked in the mirror and his eyes were clear
For the first time in a while
Hey, yeah,
Oh, I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted
Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain't spending no more time
Wasted
Oh, I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted
Yeah, yeah
Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain't spending no more time
Wasted
Friday, August 8, 2008
08.08.08
yea... today is 080808, a very special date, that came once every 100 years... and whats more, today is the opening ceremony for 2008 Beijing Olympics Game... wow!! what a great meaningful day...
well, something to jot down here is, today, the one who has not talk to me since Monday, finally talked with me today... the ambiance is weird, and we talked like strangers, as for me, i talked to him too after he talked to me in the morning... i have seek for him for some job's issue which was done by him, and i said "excuse me..." i don't even called his name... after that, he looked at me, as if expecting me to talk more to him... well, i did not do that... its meaningless now to do anything anymore... i need to let go, i need to move on... so, pls help me to be consistent... since you don't want to be close to me anymore, just be consistent to it... i don't mind it at all... i have gone through the lowest point of this relationship, no, we don't have any relationship ever since... i have gone through the lowest point in my life, and i belief, i can handle it better than before, and you need not feel guilty anymore (if you ever feel guilty on what u did to me).
have been in very low mood since Monday, and Tuesday, was the worst... i cried for all day after KF been retrenched... i was so sad... really really sad for what was happening... to me, she is the most capable in her department (aside from programming matters), but she is the one been chosen. honestly, i rather i am the one being retrenched... she called me and ask me why did my hand so cold when she shake hand and said good bye to me... she probably thought i was worrying for myself... actually, many people was thinking the same, Alvin was so worried bout me, he e-mailed to me to check if i am safe... frankly, it touches me so much... that means, i found some real n true frens here in MCT, not only plastics... hahaha!!! well, i was not worrying bout myself, as i somehow wish i will be retrench, so that i can leave this company soon... with no turning points... my hand was cold at that time is becoz of my heart felt cold... fed up to the management, fed up on the decision they made...
the low mood keep bothering me, i could not sleep well, kept on dreaming, fire, bombs, gossips... those are the things appeared in my dreams... so helpless, so lost... i dont know where i should go... but i wanna go! til late wednesday's late evening, i got a call, and it cheered me up... and of coz, my dear devil chef too played a very important role to cheer me up... not to forget i got someone to propose to me to be his gf, while i don't even know how he looks like... that's the funniest... hahahaha!!!
i am on half day leave today, as i went for something important for myself, and i am hoping i will be able to success on it! good luck to me! Happy 080808 to all!!!
well, something to jot down here is, today, the one who has not talk to me since Monday, finally talked with me today... the ambiance is weird, and we talked like strangers, as for me, i talked to him too after he talked to me in the morning... i have seek for him for some job's issue which was done by him, and i said "excuse me..." i don't even called his name... after that, he looked at me, as if expecting me to talk more to him... well, i did not do that... its meaningless now to do anything anymore... i need to let go, i need to move on... so, pls help me to be consistent... since you don't want to be close to me anymore, just be consistent to it... i don't mind it at all... i have gone through the lowest point of this relationship, no, we don't have any relationship ever since... i have gone through the lowest point in my life, and i belief, i can handle it better than before, and you need not feel guilty anymore (if you ever feel guilty on what u did to me).
have been in very low mood since Monday, and Tuesday, was the worst... i cried for all day after KF been retrenched... i was so sad... really really sad for what was happening... to me, she is the most capable in her department (aside from programming matters), but she is the one been chosen. honestly, i rather i am the one being retrenched... she called me and ask me why did my hand so cold when she shake hand and said good bye to me... she probably thought i was worrying for myself... actually, many people was thinking the same, Alvin was so worried bout me, he e-mailed to me to check if i am safe... frankly, it touches me so much... that means, i found some real n true frens here in MCT, not only plastics... hahaha!!! well, i was not worrying bout myself, as i somehow wish i will be retrench, so that i can leave this company soon... with no turning points... my hand was cold at that time is becoz of my heart felt cold... fed up to the management, fed up on the decision they made...
the low mood keep bothering me, i could not sleep well, kept on dreaming, fire, bombs, gossips... those are the things appeared in my dreams... so helpless, so lost... i dont know where i should go... but i wanna go! til late wednesday's late evening, i got a call, and it cheered me up... and of coz, my dear devil chef too played a very important role to cheer me up... not to forget i got someone to propose to me to be his gf, while i don't even know how he looks like... that's the funniest... hahahaha!!!
i am on half day leave today, as i went for something important for myself, and i am hoping i will be able to success on it! good luck to me! Happy 080808 to all!!!
Sunday, August 3, 2008
August's Quote
Only when we give joyfully, without hesitation or thought of gain, can we truly know what LOVE means.
~Leo Guscaglia~
Saturday outings... 020808
well, while worrying bout the retrenchment of MCT, i chose to be relax and enjoy the weekend to the full with my aunt's family...
woke up at 645am on saturday morning (yeap, 06:45AM, no kidding), and went to have our breakfast at McDonalds, Pionerr Mall, cause it is very hard to get uncle to have breakfast with us on Saturday as he is usually ot~ing at MCT... so, the while family, including me, went to McDonalds early in the morning, and enjoyd our breakfast there...
uncle actually had promised katherine to join her school's roller skating session to learn together with her, so, after the breakfast, we went to her school straight away, get her registered to the security guard, then all of us go in with her, to accompany her... the lesson was fun, the instructors are cute & pretty, i admire them so much as they can really walk under rollers... make my passion grow to learn roller skating too...
aunt, meimei & me stayed till 9am and left as i have another appointment with pretty vivian for my hair colouring treatment at her house. cookie is so cute (her new miniature red poodle) but too bad that i couldn't hold him as he is sick and under treatment, untouchable by outsiders... while coco is still the hyperactive kids, running, and playing around. this time, vivian choosen the burgundy brown colour for me and she also do a hidden red colour highlight for me,, i really love this new colour as this is the colour that i always want to have, more reddish... as i am a RED DEVIL (years ago), haha!!!
after finishing all, i went home to to get ready as we planned to join Chaiwoon & Melissa @ Singapore Discovery Center. We reached there around 1pm and bought the family package ticket @ $28 for 2 adults & 2 children (under 12 year-old), the package included admission fee, A SAFTI bus tour, and ticket for 2D movie, it was showing Great North, a documentary show and we booked for the 3.30pm show.
before we started to dicover the SDC, we went to the iDiscovery Cafe to have our lunch as i was supa dupa hungry at that moment... me & aunt was having a bowl of Katong Laksa for each person, and it taste good... i almost finished all... haha!!! while we were eating, Chaiwoon, Melissa & a friend of them (according to what they told me last night, is a quite handsome & very young guy) KaiWen (if i am not mistaken, as they never intro him to me wor... sobosob, :p) reached and they bought the $15 package for an extra 3D show, about 18minutes show, Monster Truck... wondering if thats nice? as the Great North was awesome, cool!!! i enjoyed the show very much... well, as we was in a rush, we didn't get to discover everything there, and i wish to return to this discovery center for another time, to fully discover everything there... maybe i will need to go by myself... but it would be cool if i come to discover it by myself, right? hehe~~
we rushed ourselves out to the car park after buying a yellow colour collar shirt for meimei (her belated birthday gift from me), as Sharon was waiting for us there, to send us home... all of us was supa dupa exhausted, aunt & meimei went for their evening nap, me on the other hand, reply to Alvin that i couldn't join the DoTA with them as i am totally out of batt... need to really rest at home... so tired, but i couldn't sleep at that time, so i watched the dvd that mum sent for me...
what a big spender, i have spent $25 for dinner on Friday night @ Marmalade Pantry with ChaiWoon & Melissa, oh yeah! not to forget that i have spent a great time with this 2 ladies on friday night, although the foods was supa expensive for us, but it was full of fun with this 2 ladies... non-stop talking, photo~ing... hahaha!!!
today will be going to Sally's house warming... need to spend again... hahaha!!! wish me luck that even if i get retrench, i will get some compensation from the company, altough thats really impossible, but try to have some hope, might make me feel better, perhaps...
woke up at 645am on saturday morning (yeap, 06:45AM, no kidding), and went to have our breakfast at McDonalds, Pionerr Mall, cause it is very hard to get uncle to have breakfast with us on Saturday as he is usually ot~ing at MCT... so, the while family, including me, went to McDonalds early in the morning, and enjoyd our breakfast there...
uncle actually had promised katherine to join her school's roller skating session to learn together with her, so, after the breakfast, we went to her school straight away, get her registered to the security guard, then all of us go in with her, to accompany her... the lesson was fun, the instructors are cute & pretty, i admire them so much as they can really walk under rollers... make my passion grow to learn roller skating too...
aunt, meimei & me stayed till 9am and left as i have another appointment with pretty vivian for my hair colouring treatment at her house. cookie is so cute (her new miniature red poodle) but too bad that i couldn't hold him as he is sick and under treatment, untouchable by outsiders... while coco is still the hyperactive kids, running, and playing around. this time, vivian choosen the burgundy brown colour for me and she also do a hidden red colour highlight for me,, i really love this new colour as this is the colour that i always want to have, more reddish... as i am a RED DEVIL (years ago), haha!!!
after finishing all, i went home to to get ready as we planned to join Chaiwoon & Melissa @ Singapore Discovery Center. We reached there around 1pm and bought the family package ticket @ $28 for 2 adults & 2 children (under 12 year-old), the package included admission fee, A SAFTI bus tour, and ticket for 2D movie, it was showing Great North, a documentary show and we booked for the 3.30pm show.
before we started to dicover the SDC, we went to the iDiscovery Cafe to have our lunch as i was supa dupa hungry at that moment... me & aunt was having a bowl of Katong Laksa for each person, and it taste good... i almost finished all... haha!!! while we were eating, Chaiwoon, Melissa & a friend of them (according to what they told me last night, is a quite handsome & very young guy) KaiWen (if i am not mistaken, as they never intro him to me wor... sobosob, :p) reached and they bought the $15 package for an extra 3D show, about 18minutes show, Monster Truck... wondering if thats nice? as the Great North was awesome, cool!!! i enjoyed the show very much... well, as we was in a rush, we didn't get to discover everything there, and i wish to return to this discovery center for another time, to fully discover everything there... maybe i will need to go by myself... but it would be cool if i come to discover it by myself, right? hehe~~
we rushed ourselves out to the car park after buying a yellow colour collar shirt for meimei (her belated birthday gift from me), as Sharon was waiting for us there, to send us home... all of us was supa dupa exhausted, aunt & meimei went for their evening nap, me on the other hand, reply to Alvin that i couldn't join the DoTA with them as i am totally out of batt... need to really rest at home... so tired, but i couldn't sleep at that time, so i watched the dvd that mum sent for me...
what a big spender, i have spent $25 for dinner on Friday night @ Marmalade Pantry with ChaiWoon & Melissa, oh yeah! not to forget that i have spent a great time with this 2 ladies on friday night, although the foods was supa expensive for us, but it was full of fun with this 2 ladies... non-stop talking, photo~ing... hahaha!!!
today will be going to Sally's house warming... need to spend again... hahaha!!! wish me luck that even if i get retrench, i will get some compensation from the company, altough thats really impossible, but try to have some hope, might make me feel better, perhaps...
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Retrenchment~~~
oh no... rumors are all around MCT and, Monday will be the deadline... gosh! retrenchment! and i might be on the list... how should i react if i am the chosen one? i am actually afraid i might not take it if that really happen, and i might ended up crying in the office, making a shameful moment for myself, for one last time in PPE... gosh, thats the last thing i wish it will happened... if possible, i wanna hold my tears, and keep it to myself only... maybe can cry to baby... but definitely not other ppl in PPE...
i have been in MCT since Dec 06, unforgettable memories i had in MCT, been doing so many things that i never thought that i would do it, but i tried during this period...
i am confused sometimes, i am afraid of losing job, but on the other hand, i do hope this can help me to totally cut myself off from MCT... be retrenched, kicked out of MCT and from this f*cking situation i faced here in MCT... the f*cking environment that been bothering me for so long time... i often wanna run away from it, but have not been really consistent into it... so, if it happen to be me, i should feel happy on the other hand... coz, finally, i am leaving... leaving all the bad memories behind of me and start another new chapter of life, again... maybe its time for me to get back to KL to be with my family again...
god bless, bless me and the person who i care in MCT, to be able to go thru everything/ anything that might happen on next Monday...
Good luck everyone!!!
i have been in MCT since Dec 06, unforgettable memories i had in MCT, been doing so many things that i never thought that i would do it, but i tried during this period...
i am confused sometimes, i am afraid of losing job, but on the other hand, i do hope this can help me to totally cut myself off from MCT... be retrenched, kicked out of MCT and from this f*cking situation i faced here in MCT... the f*cking environment that been bothering me for so long time... i often wanna run away from it, but have not been really consistent into it... so, if it happen to be me, i should feel happy on the other hand... coz, finally, i am leaving... leaving all the bad memories behind of me and start another new chapter of life, again... maybe its time for me to get back to KL to be with my family again...
god bless, bless me and the person who i care in MCT, to be able to go thru everything/ anything that might happen on next Monday...
Good luck everyone!!!