Lonely Mi...

i think i am having some emotional problems... i feel extremely lonely nowadays...

i miss days with John, miss days when he is still my darling, and i am so desperately to find one to replace him recently... i am so lonely...

i have known someone who is quite care of me, but i know that he has no intention to build up a relationship with me, but i found that i am quite enjoy to hang out with him, and i have addicted to exchange sms with him almost every day, especially on Monday, and also i enjoy talking with him very much... he will call me when i told him i feel bored, erm... if he is free... i don't know why but i just can't help but to start missing him when i don't get his sms... i think this is because of the emotional problems i have recently... maybe its because he is here for me when i am lonely and i just let myself to enjoy the care that he provided for me... after what happened one year ago, i should never ever let myself to fall into a guy, or to develop my feeling so easily anymore...

oh god!!! please give me strength to face this loneliness and overtake the emotional me as soon as possible... i am so weak that i really need a big hug... maybe can ask from baby at work... Ganbatte LayFun!!!