October 12

October 12... used to be a special date for me... it was my anniversary with John, my ex boyfriend...

today, is the 1st time, i spend this day, with his status as my EX-bf... the feeling is really complicated... i don't know if i miss him or what, but, i know i am being too much affected by this date... today also the 6 months after we broke up... the date that i initiated for our break up was April 12... 6 months ago...

no... i don't really miss him i know... what i miss now is the feeling to have someone beside me, for me to take care of, and taking care of me too... for me to call whatever sweet nick name that i want... for me to hug anytime, anywhere, for me to call up to talk nothing, for me to say i love you whenever i want, for me to love, for me to miss, for me to plan our future together... a hope...

but, unfortunately, he is not the right person... he has never been the right person for me to spend my future with, but i refused to accept this fact, i tried my very best for him to be the right person of mine... but i have failed in this project... he is still the John that i knew 5 years ago... no... he has become worst i should said... it is okie... at least i have woke up from the fairy tales dream of mine now... i know, i should move on! if he doesn't meant for me for real, then let him go.. i shall find my Mr. Right in the right time, right place... my prince charming should be on his way...

i just dun wanna spend this date alone today... so i will have a date with a gf later... i am afraid if the emotions kill me again, i will do something crazy again... the things that happened during last mid-autumn shall not be repeated anymore...

goodbye John~ goodbye my love~from today onwards, you & October 12 shall mean nothing to me anymore~

keep moving layfun~! ganbatte~!

Lazy Blogger => Layfun

too many to say... but really not in the mood to write down... so stress with what happened during the past month... i hope will be able to let go of the unhappiness soon...

should have write down more, but... maybe when i am really in the mood to write... too many feelings, too many to be written down... i don't know where to start actually...

October's Quote

Being deeply loved by some one gives you strengths; loving someone deeply gives you courage~.

~Lao Tzu~

Things that I have learnt & have yet to learn...

I've learned .. That the best classroom in the world is at the feet of an elderly person.

I've learned .. That when you're in love, it shows.

I've learned .. That just one person saying to me, 'You've made my day!' makes my day.

I've learned .. That having a child fall asleep in your arms is one of the most peaceful feelings in the world.

I've learned .. That being kind is more important than being right.

I've learned .. That you should never say no to a gift from a child.

I've learned .. That I can always pray for someone when I don't have the strength to help him in some other way.

I've learned .. That no matter how serious your life requires you to be, everyone needs a friend to act goofy with.

I've learned .. That sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart to understand.

I've learned .. That simple walks with my father around the block on summer nights when I was a child did wonders for me as an adult.

I've learned .. That life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes. I've learned .. That we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for.

I've learned .. That money doesn't buy class.

I've learned .. That it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.

I've learned .. That under everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.

I've learned .. That to ignore the facts does not change the facts.

I've learned .. That when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.

I've learned .. That love, not time, heals all wounds.

I've learned .. That the easiest way for me to grow as a person is to surround myself with people smarter than I am.

I've learned .. That everyone you meet deserves to be greeted with a smile, but I've failed to do so nowadays...

I've learned .. That no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.

I've learned .... That life is tough, but I'm tougher.

I've learned .. That opportunities are never lost; someone will take the ones you miss.

I've learned .. That when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere.

I've learned .. That I wish I could have told my Mom that I love her one more time before she passed away. (I will do it as often as I can coz it is a blessing that my mum is still alive and living her life healthily for the family)

I've learned .. That one should keep his words both soft and tender, because tomorrow he may have to eat them.

I've learned .. That a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.

I've yet to learn.. That when your newly born grandchild holds your little finger in his little fist, that you're hooked for life.

I've learned .. That everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you're climbing it.

I've learned .. That the less time I have to work with, the more things I get done.

如水 - 卫兰

期待过我们似细水
可惜蒸发出眼泪
明白你最近有些暂时伴侣
偷一刻午睡
彷佛专一使你极空虚
怀疑被你抱着我念着谁
无论你再好亦舍得失去

难过亦过难道我嫌损失未够多
早放手可减轻痛楚
不等泡沫给吹破
不想去知谁填补我

无悔在我还是我任你多麽差错
无谓去追问为何
深知告别损失非我
让情人离别似水清洗我

原谅你对着我说谎
出於好意的作状
明白你最近已经避谈近况
早不敢寄望
心中早把相爱如观光
情如瀑布泻下也未惊慌
心境已随着那水花得到释放

难过亦过难道我嫌损失未够多
早放手可减轻痛楚
不等泡沫给吹破
不想去知谁填补我

无悔在我还是我任你多麽差错
无谓去追问为何
深知告别损失非我
让情人离别似水清洗我

难过亦过难道我嫌损失未够多
早放手可减轻痛楚
不等泡沫给吹破
不想去知谁填补我

无悔在我还是我任你多麽差错
无谓去追问为何
深知告别损失非我
让情人离别似水清洗我

心中有涟漪吹过又回到最初平静去做我

拔罐 Cupping Glass

i went for cupping glass treatment last night, as i felt super aching on my shoulder... and it was my very 1st time to do this treatment, and gosh! it was so pain! and my back looks so ugly... but most of all, hey, i am all right now! ALL CURED!!! amazing! i feel really good after the aunt did the treatment for me, even though i felt supa dupa pain and my shoulder now looks really ugly and terrible... but all WORTH!!! thank you aunty!!!

September's Quote

Love is not getting, but giving...

~Henry Van Dyke