OrDiNarY Lif3

Home Trip 040409 ~ 120409

2009-04-19T13:58:00.008+08:00

I was finally home after 4 months of planning & home sick at Singapore, and it was a long vacation... 9 days in total I spent in KL...

Had a very busy schedule during this home trip, met up with lots of friends & family members... miss them a lot now!

1st of all, million of thanks for my mum & grandma, whom cooked a lot of my fav dishes to welcome me home.

2ndly, my lovely cousin AiYen, who came from Sunway to Kepong to have breakfast with us & bring us to Jln Ipoh to survey on the bridal's photography packages... it was so tiring.. haha!

Thanks a lot for my youngest sister & HiewFoong who took their annual leave to accompany me to sing K @ RedBox. I really enjoy myself very much during our K session... can't imagine if I sing this way with Melissa & Chai Woon, I think they will run away... hahaha! And to WeiTeck, thank you for your time for the dinner & coffee!

To my jimui, thanks a lot to Meiyen for the dinner, and after I read the comments on your photo album, a lot of our old memories was flashing on my mind nowadays! Yeetyng, thank you for meeting up with me on the next day of your return from Bangkok, I'm so touched & appreciated it very much! Miss you gals & love you lots!

Zienhwa, my lou you kei! So good to meet you up & wishing you & your husband to live life happily ever after... I am so sorry for not able to attend to your wedding... Its really a big regrets for me...

Not to forget ChanYong, who has brought me & Kaili to a very nice place in Hulu Langat & nice supper at setapak, thanks a lot!

ChoiYen, so sorry that we made you waited us for 2 hours at DPC, it was truly an accident... we wont let it happened anymore... and thanks for making your effort to meet me up...

And to ChinYee, thank you & your hubby to visit me at my place and also bring me back to the tong shui shop that we used to visit for so many times during our tuition time at Mr. Tan's place. Though the foods have changed, but not our friendship, hope our gang (meiyen, yeetyng, kaili, you & me) can have a gathering at that shop in the future... perhaps can find Mr. Tan to join us too...

thanks to my dad & mum who cooked lots of nice foods for me, and also my auntie who gave me a dinner treat on the night before i left to Singapore again...

Lenny, my mentor, my sister... it was so nice that we get to see each other again, and what a surprise that we bumped into each other on the day that I should go back to Singapore at Bangsar... with Ben, Carlos & Tony... really surprise & happy to see you all there...

Kaili, my dearest ji mui, 20 years of friendship, we have gone thru good & bad times, but still, we are here for each other... I am glad to have you beside me, and I promise I will be next to you too... be strong my dear! I love you much and so do our friends... they love you too... so, you must love yourself more than anyone else... do the best for yourself... And I wanna apologize to you bout my bad attitude on the night that we meet up with choiyen, so sorry dear... and thank you dear for sending me to Bangsar... I really appreciated it a lot... love you always!

I am looking forward to my next trip home to meet up with all of you again! Take care always! =)

030309

2009-03-03T18:02:00.002+08:00

i am on medical leave today... resting at home after seeing the company panel doctor at Jurong East... watched 家好月圆and cried together with the actors & actresses in the drama...

im not happy... i feel so bitter within...

help~!

心中有涟漪吹过又回到最初平静去做我

2009-02-22T15:27:00.001+08:00

心中有涟漪吹过, 又回到最初平静去做我

Too late?!

2009-02-22T15:04:00.003+08:00

im not sure if he is for real... but this is the 1st time, he sms me to ask if i can give him a chance to be with me again...

im so confused now... what should i do? i know i should not be moved by just few words from him, but, i cannot lied to myself that i feel nothing bout it... he was the guy that i loved for so many years... and although i was the one who initiate for the break up, but still he holds a very important place in my life and in my heart...

i dunno what i should do... but if he is asking me while he is still with her, i wont give any single chance... i am sure bout this! i am not going to be a 3rd party for the relationship of my ex and his current gf... that will be very funny... and i will not forgive myself for putting myself in such picture...

i need help~!

i need peace~!

i need to be strong & brave~!

Valentine's Day

2009-02-15T18:46:00.003+08:00

well, it was yesterday.... i had my very 1st Valentine's day without a lover with me since 2004... the feeling is pretty good as i had a date with a close gf of mine, melissa...

we have went to Raffle's Link for Pizza, and were planned to watch Bride's War, but too bad, the tickets sold out every way, before we headed back to Jurong, we had a free cornertto ice-cream at the entrance of Cineleisure Complex @ Orchard... the staff were asking us to show love to our friend, and i showed it by hugging melissa... and we got our cornetto ice cream... the photographer took our pictures too... hehe~ dunno if it got posted on the newspaper or not... will check it out tonight... =p

after that, we headed to jurong point to buy a full month gift for Baby Ashton (Alvin & YanPing's Prince) and we walked to his place after we got the very cute Baby Mickey gift set from Kiddey's Place...

met a lot of the ex-colleagues from MCT, Jane, Uncle Johnson, Mr Pan, Gary, Landia, Molly, HaiYan, ZhongShun and so on... and most of all, i met with my baby there also.... miss her a lot...

as a conclusion for this single valentine's day, i still able to enjoy it without a boyfri~end around~ thanks to melissa for the day spending with me... all the best to all of us (all the single~s out there)

喜帖街

2009-01-11T18:25:00.002+08:00

主唱：謝安琪
作曲：Eric Kwok
填詞：黃偉文
編曲：Eric Kwok
監製：Eric Kwok

忘掉種過的花　重新的出發　放棄理想吧
別再看　塵封的喜帖　你正在要搬家
築得起　人應該接受　都有日倒下
其實沒有一種安穩快樂　永遠也不差

就似這一區　曾經稱得上美滿甲天下
但霎眼　全街的單位　快要住滿烏鴉
好景不會每日常在　天梯不可只往上爬
愛的人沒有一生一世嗎　大概不需要害怕

(忘掉愛過的他)　當初的喜帖金箔印著那位他
裱起婚紗照那道牆　及一切美麗舊年華　明日同步拆下
(忘掉有過的家)　小妝枱梳化雪櫃及兩份紅茶
溫馨的光景不過借出　到期拿回嗎　等不到下一代　是嗎

忘記砌過的沙　回憶的堡壘　剎那已倒下
面對這浮起的荒土　你注定學會瀟灑
階磚不會拒絕磨蝕　窗花不可幽禁落霞
有感情就會一生一世嗎　又再婉惜有用嗎

(忘掉愛過的他)　當初的喜帖金箔印著那位他
裱起婚紗照那道牆　及一切美麗舊年華　明日同步拆下
(忘掉有過的家)　小妝枱梳化雪櫃及兩份紅茶
溫馨的光景不過借出　到期拿回嗎　終須會時辰到　別怕

請放下手裡那鎖匙　好嗎?

钟无艳

2009-01-11T18:10:00.002+08:00

其實我怕你總誇獎高估我堅忍
其實更怕你隻懂得欣賞我品行
無人及我用字絕重拾了你信心
無人問我可甘心演這偉大化身
其實我想間中崩潰脆弱如戀人
誰在你兩臂中低得不需要身份

＊無奈被你識穿這個念頭　得到好處的你　　
　明示不想失去絕世好友

　沒有得你的允許　我都會愛下去
　互相祝福心軟之際或者准我吻下去
　我痛恨成熟到不要你望著我流淚
　但漂亮笑下去　彷彿冬天飲雪水
　被你一貫的讚許　卻不配愛下去
　在你悲傷一刻必須解慰找到我樂趣
　我甘於當副車也是快樂著唏噓
　彼此這麼瞭解＊
難怪注定似兄妹一對

其實我怕你的好感基於我修養
其實最怕你的私心虧准我體諒
無人問我寂寞像投何處去養傷
原來是我的心境高到變為偶像
誰情願照耀著別人就如　月亮
為奴婢為你備飯奉茶是殘忍真相

Repeat＊
讓我決定我的快樂
那須得你的允許　我都會愛下去
互相祝福心軟之際或者准我吻下去
我痛恨成熟到不要你望著我流淚
但漂亮笑下去　彷彿冬天飲雪水
被你一貫的讚許　無須裝說下去
在你悲傷一刻必須解慰找到我樂趣
我甘於當副車卻沒法撞入堡壘
彼此這麼瞭解　難怪注定似兄妹一對

你的他怎允許　　結伴觀賞雪的淚
永不開封的汽水　讓我抱在懷內吻下去

Last day of 2008

2008-12-31T09:14:00.001+08:00

i think today is my worst day in 2008...

woke up as usual to prepare for work, and walked to mrt as usual, wear my very comfortable plastic shoes, but i fell down on the road while reaching mrt station~ gosh~!!! what's more, the zip of my skirt broke again... and i have to cover myself with my pink scarf... and both knees is bleeding till now~

really hope that this is the last bad thing to happen on me...

Happy New Year 2009~! To myself, and all the people that i care out there~!

Fish Spa @ QianHu

2008-12-28T18:27:00.003+08:00

today, went for my very 1st time fish spa with aunty @ QianHu...

the feeling is so funny... itchy, itchy & itchy... thats what i felt at 1st as we chose the medium fish pond... then we regretted and head to the small fish pond, and this time we get to control ourselves for not laughing and moving... and its a good experience too... i like the feeling and would like to try again in the future...

Merry Christmas~!

2008-12-25T11:13:00.003+08:00

it has been really a long time that i did not blog... i have been too busy for this new job for the past month and am still being the same busy mode for almost everyday~

a lot of things happened during this period... happy & sad, crazy, wild, dump... too many to be remembered...

i miss my old colleagues very much on the 1st week working in the new environment... extremely miss them especially baby, uncle chiang & alex... and... i cried on the 2nd week of my new work... due to the stress, workloads on the 2nd day i started to handle my jobs... felt that im so useless & helpless at that very moment...

been very busy with works & life... during this period, i have attended 2 weddings, one was Meiyen, my jimui's wedding with Mr Wan Hon Kit, another one was my youngest uncle, he finally settled down...

then weiteck came to singapore and we spent crazy yet happy night together with chai woon & melissa at Marina Barrage...

now, my best friend, kaili, and her family are here in singapore for xmas, and i am going out to meet them soon....

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year 2009~!

New Begining

2008-11-25T22:22:00.005+08:00

it has been more than 2 weeks since i left my old company - MCT, which i have been working for 1 year & 11 months...

it is really not an easy decision for me to make to leave this company especially when there are so many of friends that i appreciate working together with... but, i have to go on and live my life for myself... friends are important, but i can't let friends decides for my future, so, i decided to change a new job after several considerations...

this new job, location is rather far if compare with MCT which is only 15 minutes to travel to if you drive a car... ii take for about 1 hour to travel from my place to this new office... but, lots of new things to learn there... and i got a brand new working environment... all FEMALES environment... i mean my department, and they are mostly malay ladies. and they are all friendly and willing to teach & help whenever i need...

hope everyone in the old company is doing well & hope i can have a brighter & better future in the new company... i miss you gals & guys in mct, especially PPE, the department that i worked with, so, if there is a chance, let's arrange for a gathering, okie?

November's Quote

2008-11-04T16:55:00.003+08:00

If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. And if they don't, they never were.

~Kahlil Gibran~

October 12

2008-10-12T09:59:00.001+08:00

October 12... used to be a special date for me... it was my anniversary with John, my ex boyfriend...

today, is the 1st time, i spend this day, with his status as my EX-bf... the feeling is really complicated... i don't know if i miss him or what, but, i know i am being too much affected by this date... today also the 6 months after we broke up... the date that i initiated for our break up was April 12... 6 months ago...

no... i don't really miss him i know... what i miss now is the feeling to have someone beside me, for me to take care of, and taking care of me too... for me to call whatever sweet nick name that i want... for me to hug anytime, anywhere, for me to call up to talk nothing, for me to say i love you whenever i want, for me to love, for me to miss, for me to plan our future together... a hope...

but, unfortunately, he is not the right person... he has never been the right person for me to spend my future with, but i refused to accept this fact, i tried my very best for him to be the right person of mine... but i have failed in this project... he is still the John that i knew 5 years ago... no... he has become worst i should said... it is okie... at least i have woke up from the fairy tales dream of mine now... i know, i should move on! if he doesn't meant for me for real, then let him go.. i shall find my Mr. Right in the right time, right place... my prince charming should be on his way...

i just dun wanna spend this date alone today... so i will have a date with a gf later... i am afraid if the emotions kill me again, i will do something crazy again... the things that happened during last mid-autumn shall not be repeated anymore...

goodbye John~ goodbye my love~from today onwards, you & October 12 shall mean nothing to me anymore~

keep moving layfun~! ganbatte~!

Lazy Blogger => Layfun

2008-10-08T14:10:00.004+08:00

too many to say... but really not in the mood to write down... so stress with what happened during the past month... i hope will be able to let go of the unhappiness soon...

should have write down more, but... maybe when i am really in the mood to write... too many feelings, too many to be written down... i don't know where to start actually...

October's Quote

2008-10-02T09:53:00.003+08:00

Being deeply loved by some one gives you strengths; loving someone deeply gives you courage~.

~Lao Tzu~

Things that I have learnt & have yet to learn...

2008-09-22T16:45:00.004+08:00

I've learned .. That the best classroom in the world is at the feet of an elderly person.

I've learned .. That when you're in love, it shows.

I've learned .. That just one person saying to me, 'You've made my day!' makes my day.

I've learned .. That having a child fall asleep in your arms is one of the most peaceful feelings in the world.

I've learned .. That being kind is more important than being right.

I've learned .. That you should never say no to a gift from a child.

I've learned .. That I can always pray for someone when I don't have the strength to help him in some other way.

I've learned .. That no matter how serious your life requires you to be, everyone needs a friend to act goofy with.

I've learned .. That sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart to understand.

I've learned .. That simple walks with my father around the block on summer nights when I was a child did wonders for me as an adult.

I've learned .. That life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes. I've learned .. That we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for.

I've learned .. That money doesn't buy class.

I've learned .. That it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.

I've learned .. That under everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.

I've learned .. That to ignore the facts does not change the facts.

I've learned .. That when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.

I've learned .. That love, not time, heals all wounds.

I've learned .. That the easiest way for me to grow as a person is to surround myself with people smarter than I am.

I've learned .. That everyone you meet deserves to be greeted with a smile, but I've failed to do so nowadays...

I've learned .. That no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.

I've learned .... That life is tough, but I'm tougher.

I've learned .. That opportunities are never lost; someone will take the ones you miss.

I've learned .. That when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere.

I've learned .. That I wish I could have told my Mom that I love her one more time before she passed away. (I will do it as often as I can coz it is a blessing that my mum is still alive and living her life healthily for the family)

I've learned .. That one should keep his words both soft and tender, because tomorrow he may have to eat them.

I've learned .. That a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.

I've yet to learn.. That when your newly born grandchild holds your little finger in his little fist, that you're hooked for life.

I've learned .. That everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you're climbing it.

I've learned .. That the less time I have to work with, the more things I get done.

如水 - 卫兰

2008-09-16T15:24:00.001+08:00

期待过我们似细水
可惜蒸发出眼泪
明白你最近有些暂时伴侣
偷一刻午睡
彷佛专一使你极空虚
怀疑被你抱着我念着谁
无论你再好亦舍得失去

难过亦过难道我嫌损失未够多
早放手可减轻痛楚
不等泡沫给吹破
不想去知谁填补我

无悔在我还是我任你多麽差错
无谓去追问为何
深知告别损失非我
让情人离别似水清洗我

原谅你对着我说谎
出於好意的作状
明白你最近已经避谈近况
早不敢寄望
心中早把相爱如观光
情如瀑布泻下也未惊慌
心境已随着那水花得到释放

难过亦过难道我嫌损失未够多
早放手可减轻痛楚
不等泡沫给吹破
不想去知谁填补我

无悔在我还是我任你多麽差错
无谓去追问为何
深知告别损失非我
让情人离别似水清洗我

难过亦过难道我嫌损失未够多
早放手可减轻痛楚
不等泡沫给吹破
不想去知谁填补我

无悔在我还是我任你多麽差错
无谓去追问为何
深知告别损失非我
让情人离别似水清洗我

心中有涟漪吹过又回到最初平静去做我

拔罐 Cupping Glass

2008-09-06T09:47:00.002+08:00

i went for cupping glass treatment last night, as i felt super aching on my shoulder... and it was my very 1st time to do this treatment, and gosh! it was so pain! and my back looks so ugly... but most of all, hey, i am all right now! ALL CURED!!! amazing! i feel really good after the aunt did the treatment for me, even though i felt supa dupa pain and my shoulder now looks really ugly and terrible... but all WORTH!!! thank you aunty!!!

September's Quote

2008-09-05T15:40:00.004+08:00

Love is not getting, but giving...

~Henry Van Dyke

heart ache

2008-08-30T15:01:00.004+08:00

how to describe this feeling? what will make some one's heart aches? when will some one feel heart aching?

last night, I've discovered something that i never thought it will ever happened... some one was gossiping bout what i did recently, and i knew too a lot more doesn't happy with me as i was not the chosen one, i don't care bout the a lot more, i don't care for that some one too, at least i am trying my VERY BEST not to bother bout that some one for quite a long period... but, the truth is cruel, that some one is some one that i never thought will gossip or comment about what i did & done, at least not to the friends around, but, it happened... i was shocked to know the truth... it beat my emotion to the lowest again...

i cried myself to sleep last night... and feel extremely sad for the whole night... but, someone cheered me up again this morning, by sending me sms & calling me up... thank you my dear... i really appreciate what you did for me...

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

the song above, is kinda, nope, it is really suit for me... thanks baby to share this very meaningful song with me...

Secret Love

2008-08-26T19:38:00.000+08:00

secret love - buddha bar

想哭‏

2008-08-26T19:02:00.000+08:00

相约在一个适合聊天的下午
分开很多年满以为没有包伏
我还打算回顾我们为何结束
还想问你是不是一个人住
当你微笑给我礼貌的招呼
当我想诉说这些年的感触
你却点满桌了我最爱的食物
介绍我看一本天文学的书
我想哭不敢哭难道这种相处
不像我们梦寐以求和幸福
走下去这一步是宽容还是痛苦
我想哭怎么哭完成爱情旅途
谈天说地是最理想的出路
谈音乐谈时事不说爱
若无其事原来是最狠的报复
当我想坦白我们的乐多于苦
你说水星它没有行、星好孤独
我才明白时间较分手还残酷
老朋友了再没资格不满足

What hurts the most?

2008-08-26T18:51:00.003+08:00

today, baby shared a song with me early in the morning, she said the song is pretty suit for me... and it is in fact a nice song, a song that can tear my heart into pieces all over again... and if i need to cry out loud, i bet this song can helps a lot... hahahaha!!! Well, let's check it out!

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....

Sickness

2008-08-22T12:37:00.005+08:00

what is this world that i am living here? why is the ppl likes to gossip so much? don't they have something better to do? can you guys just stop commenting about what i am about? i am so sick... be it my body or my soul...

went to see doctor last night, as i feel extremely cold & also dizziness in the office, especially when i was walking to the rest room and also to my HR office for document submission, i knew that my body is not feeling well and i decided to take the medical slip from my HR and went to see doctor at night after aunt finished with all her house work... after the doctor check for my body temperature and also heart beat, he told me i have fever and flu... and he asked me to rest at home by issued a medical certificate to me...

i have took my 3rd time medicine from last night till now... but, still feel not so well... maybe i haven't got myself to sweat yet... need to sweat a lot b4 i can fully recover... that's the usual steps for me to get well from the sickness... will cover myself with blanket again, off the fan, close the door & windows and SLEEP!!!

for the ppl who is not happy to see me sick again, well, i will take it as one kind of concern from you guys about my health, and thanks a lot for it, i hate when i am sick too, but that is out of my range of control... if possible, i do not wish to sick too... the feeling is terrible & horrible...

suppose to have a date with my baby to Marmalade Pantry on this coming Saturday, but if i can't recover by this evening, then most probably we have to cancel the date... so, i shall do my best in order to recover by this evening... GET WELL SOON LAYFUN! BE STRONG! and last but not least, i wish everyone that i care & care bout me, to have a healthy & happy weekend ahead!

Uninvited

2008-08-17T12:07:00.004+08:00

just knew that i haven been watching by some paparazzi from my office...

well, my blog is meant for myself to jot down things that i want to remember, for myself, not for paparazzi to watch my daily activities... and if you are not happy with what i am writing or posting, you can always choose not to read or visit to my site, i don't expect people who dislike or hate me to read what i write n post... after all, this is for my memories, not for others...

i used to care on how people might think or feel by the words i posted, i even closed the my older blog for a friend, whom i once really care a lot... really a lot... til my best friend why am i closing the old blog, i told them coz it has some problem occurred and i have no choice but to close it, and open another new blog... but, after so many things happened, i found that, all i need to do is to love myself, to care bout my own feeling, not others, where after all i have done, no one is appreciating it at all, all i get in the end is still negative, negative, and negative...

when you can't love anymore, that's when you start to hate... i don't hate people who i never love before... those i hate, were those i once loved with all my heart n soul... but had turned me down with their own reasons... which i am not interested to know it anymore... be it you were sincere to me or not at that time, as long as i know i was sincere, i did things from my heart, then everything happened before is not important anymore, it has become part of my memory... where it will fade off sooner or later... and i hate them coz they hate me, and their hatred has really affected me and made me hate them vice versa...

hatred is a feeling where drive people to look terrible, we will need to kill tonnes of cells to hate, and it will drive us to become uglier, older, and not welcome by other peoples, even if they did, just because they are as plastic as you, and me... we can't be friend to each other after we have been so plastic to each other... you once said it extremely loud behind me that you love plastic, but you never know how big was the impact after you said that... you were obviously referring to me at that time, and good, very good, till i decided i really have to drop this friendship... a fake and plastic friendship i had in singapore... to you, i am like a torn in your flesh, and to me, you are a torn in my flesh too, so, there is really no point for us to tell ourselves that we are friends... when we both hate each other so much...

to all the people who hates or dislikes me a lot, please stay away from my site, for those who wants to keep an eye on me by peeping my blog, my blog, my site, is 闲人与狗，不得内入, does not welcome for Paparazzi... please stay away or you will be sorry!!!

Thank you for being my readers and being care of what happened around me, but i don't need it from you, ms/mr. paparazzi... save it for all your other friends... if you have nothing better to do, sorry, i still don't welcome you to be my reader, becoz i don't care if you have anything to do, that's none of my business!

Reunion?

2008-08-13T19:19:00.002+08:00

just got a bad news from uncle chiang that, we will have a new boss as jennifer is transferred to QEM, CL will be in-charged for PPE, NPD & process engineer... gosh... that means, we will need to reunion with NPD again... what a tragic!!! how to work as a team again with her? how to deal with this new boss? i have no strength at all...

i think guys are just the same... as we are not in talking term for about 2 weeks, and even when i asked him something bout work, i did not talk like last time, sweet and nice, to him anymore... i am controlling my feeling towards him very hardly... perhaps he is thinking that he has lost his charm on me, so, this 2 days, he started to do something to draw my attention to him... well, i am controlling myself to be consistent on this issue... i do not want to drag myself back to the dillema anymore... so pain, where, he has never care on how pain am i... never once that he shows his concern on me when i was suffering in this dillema... so, now, who cares how you actually feel? i dont want to care anymore... LET ME GO!!!!

That's How You Know - Amy Adams

2008-08-10T07:52:00.001+08:00

Amy Adams Lyrics
That's How You Know Lyrics

So Close - Jon Mclaughlin

2008-08-10T07:28:00.005+08:00

Jon McLaughlin Lyrics
So Close (from Enchanted) Lyrics

You're in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I'm with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams must die
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
Now you're beside me and look how far we've come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We're so close
To reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
Let's go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

Unfaithful - Rihanna

2008-08-10T07:23:00.002+08:00

Rihanna Lyrics
Unfaithful Lyrics

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
Uh
Anymore (anymore)

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer (a murderer)

No no no no

Yeah yeah yeah

Take A Bow - Rihanna

2008-08-10T07:22:00.001+08:00

Rihanna Lyrics
Take A Bow Lyrics

Hoo...

How 'bout a round of applause
Yeah...
Standing ovation
Oohhhh... yeah
Yeah yeah yeah yeah...

You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out

[Chorus]
Don't tell me you're sorry cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
Talkin' about, girl, I love you, you're the one
This just looks like the re-run
Please, what else is on

[Chorus]

And don't tell me you're sorry cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

And the award for the best liar goes to you
For making me believe that you could be
Faithful to me
Lets hear your speech ohh

How about a round of applause
A standing ovation

[Chorus]
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

But it's over now

Ever Ever After - Carrie Underwood

2008-08-10T07:20:00.001+08:00

Storybook endings, fairy tales coming true
Deep down inside we want to believe they still do
And a secret is taught, it's our favourite part of the story
Let's just admit we all want to make it too

Ever ever after
If we just don't get it our own way
Ever ever after
It may only be a wish away

Start a new fashion, wear your heart on your sleeves
Sometimes you reach what's real just by making believe
Unafraid, unashamed
There is joy to be claimed in this world
You even might wind up being glad to be you

Ever ever after
Though the world will tell you it's not smart

Ever ever after
The world can be yours if you let your heart
Believe in ever after

No wonder your heart feels it's flying
Your head feels it's spinning
Each happy ending's a brand new beginning
Let yourself be enchanted, you just might break through

To ever ever after
Forever could even start today
Ever ever after
Maybe it's just one wish away
Your ever ever after

(I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss)

Oh, for ever ever after

Before He Cheats - Carrie Underwood

2008-08-10T07:19:00.001+08:00

Right now he's probably slow dancing with a bleach blonde tramp,
and she's probably getting frisky...
right now, he's probably buying her some fruity little drink cause she can't shoot whiskey...

Right now, he's probably up behind her with a pool-stick, showing her how to shoot a combo...

And he don't know...

That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats...
I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires...

Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

Right now, she's probably up singing some
white-trash version of Shania karaoke..
Right now, she's probably saying "I'm drunk"
and he's a thinking that he's gonna get lucky,
Right now, he's probably dabbing on 3 dollars worth of that bathroom polo
And he don't know...

That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats,
I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires...

Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

I might've saved a little trouble for the next girl,
Cause the next time that he cheats...

Oh, you know it won't be on me!

Ohh... not on me...
Cause I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats...
I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires...

Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

Ohh.. Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats...

Ohh... before he cheats...

Wasted - Carrie Underwood

2008-08-10T07:17:00.002+08:00

Standing at the back door
She tried to make it fast
One tear hit the hard wood
It fell like broken glass
She said sometimes love slips away
And you just can't get it back
Let's face it

For one split second
She almost turned around
But that would be like pouring rain drops
Back into a cloud
So she took another step and said
I see the way out and I'm gonna' take it

I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted

Another glass of whisky but it still don't kill the pain
So he stumbles to the sink and pours it down the drain
He says it's time to be a man and stop living for yesterday
Gotta face it.

Cause' I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted

Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain't spending no more time
Wasted

She kept drivin' along
Till the moon and the sun were floating side-by-side
He looked in the mirror and his eyes were clear
For the first time in a while

Hey, yeah,
Oh, I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted

Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain't spending no more time
Wasted

Oh, I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted

Yeah, yeah
Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain't spending no more time
Wasted

08.08.08

2008-08-08T19:19:00.004+08:00

yea... today is 080808, a very special date, that came once every 100 years... and whats more, today is the opening ceremony for 2008 Beijing Olympics Game... wow!! what a great meaningful day...

well, something to jot down here is, today, the one who has not talk to me since Monday, finally talked with me today... the ambiance is weird, and we talked like strangers, as for me, i talked to him too after he talked to me in the morning... i have seek for him for some job's issue which was done by him, and i said "excuse me..." i don't even called his name... after that, he looked at me, as if expecting me to talk more to him... well, i did not do that... its meaningless now to do anything anymore... i need to let go, i need to move on... so, pls help me to be consistent... since you don't want to be close to me anymore, just be consistent to it... i don't mind it at all... i have gone through the lowest point of this relationship, no, we don't have any relationship ever since... i have gone through the lowest point in my life, and i belief, i can handle it better than before, and you need not feel guilty anymore (if you ever feel guilty on what u did to me).

have been in very low mood since Monday, and Tuesday, was the worst... i cried for all day after KF been retrenched... i was so sad... really really sad for what was happening... to me, she is the most capable in her department (aside from programming matters), but she is the one been chosen. honestly, i rather i am the one being retrenched... she called me and ask me why did my hand so cold when she shake hand and said good bye to me... she probably thought i was worrying for myself... actually, many people was thinking the same, Alvin was so worried bout me, he e-mailed to me to check if i am safe... frankly, it touches me so much... that means, i found some real n true frens here in MCT, not only plastics... hahaha!!! well, i was not worrying bout myself, as i somehow wish i will be retrench, so that i can leave this company soon... with no turning points... my hand was cold at that time is becoz of my heart felt cold... fed up to the management, fed up on the decision they made...

the low mood keep bothering me, i could not sleep well, kept on dreaming, fire, bombs, gossips... those are the things appeared in my dreams... so helpless, so lost... i dont know where i should go... but i wanna go! til late wednesday's late evening, i got a call, and it cheered me up... and of coz, my dear devil chef too played a very important role to cheer me up... not to forget i got someone to propose to me to be his gf, while i don't even know how he looks like... that's the funniest... hahahaha!!!

i am on half day leave today, as i went for something important for myself, and i am hoping i will be able to success on it! good luck to me! Happy 080808 to all!!!

August's Quote

2008-08-03T07:34:00.003+08:00

Only when we give joyfully, without hesitation or thought of gain, can we truly know what LOVE means.

~Leo Guscaglia~

Saturday outings... 020808

2008-08-03T05:40:00.002+08:00

well, while worrying bout the retrenchment of MCT, i chose to be relax and enjoy the weekend to the full with my aunt's family...

woke up at 645am on saturday morning (yeap, 06:45AM, no kidding), and went to have our breakfast at McDonalds, Pionerr Mall, cause it is very hard to get uncle to have breakfast with us on Saturday as he is usually ot~ing at MCT... so, the while family, including me, went to McDonalds early in the morning, and enjoyd our breakfast there...

uncle actually had promised katherine to join her school's roller skating session to learn together with her, so, after the breakfast, we went to her school straight away, get her registered to the security guard, then all of us go in with her, to accompany her... the lesson was fun, the instructors are cute & pretty, i admire them so much as they can really walk under rollers... make my passion grow to learn roller skating too...

aunt, meimei & me stayed till 9am and left as i have another appointment with pretty vivian for my hair colouring treatment at her house. cookie is so cute (her new miniature red poodle) but too bad that i couldn't hold him as he is sick and under treatment, untouchable by outsiders... while coco is still the hyperactive kids, running, and playing around. this time, vivian choosen the burgundy brown colour for me and she also do a hidden red colour highlight for me,, i really love this new colour as this is the colour that i always want to have, more reddish... as i am a RED DEVIL (years ago), haha!!!

after finishing all, i went home to to get ready as we planned to join Chaiwoon & Melissa @ Singapore Discovery Center. We reached there around 1pm and bought the family package ticket @ $28 for 2 adults & 2 children (under 12 year-old), the package included admission fee, A SAFTI bus tour, and ticket for 2D movie, it was showing Great North, a documentary show and we booked for the 3.30pm show.

before we started to dicover the SDC, we went to the iDiscovery Cafe to have our lunch as i was supa dupa hungry at that moment... me & aunt was having a bowl of Katong Laksa for each person, and it taste good... i almost finished all... haha!!! while we were eating, Chaiwoon, Melissa & a friend of them (according to what they told me last night, is a quite handsome & very young guy) KaiWen (if i am not mistaken, as they never intro him to me wor... sobosob, :p) reached and they bought the $15 package for an extra 3D show, about 18minutes show, Monster Truck... wondering if thats nice? as the Great North was awesome, cool!!! i enjoyed the show very much... well, as we was in a rush, we didn't get to discover everything there, and i wish to return to this discovery center for another time, to fully discover everything there... maybe i will need to go by myself... but it would be cool if i come to discover it by myself, right? hehe~~

we rushed ourselves out to the car park after buying a yellow colour collar shirt for meimei (her belated birthday gift from me), as Sharon was waiting for us there, to send us home... all of us was supa dupa exhausted, aunt & meimei went for their evening nap, me on the other hand, reply to Alvin that i couldn't join the DoTA with them as i am totally out of batt... need to really rest at home... so tired, but i couldn't sleep at that time, so i watched the dvd that mum sent for me...

what a big spender, i have spent $25 for dinner on Friday night @ Marmalade Pantry with ChaiWoon & Melissa, oh yeah! not to forget that i have spent a great time with this 2 ladies on friday night, although the foods was supa expensive for us, but it was full of fun with this 2 ladies... non-stop talking, photo~ing... hahaha!!!

today will be going to Sally's house warming... need to spend again... hahaha!!! wish me luck that even if i get retrench, i will get some compensation from the company, altough thats really impossible, but try to have some hope, might make me feel better, perhaps...

Retrenchment~~~

2008-08-02T00:48:00.002+08:00

oh no... rumors are all around MCT and, Monday will be the deadline... gosh! retrenchment! and i might be on the list... how should i react if i am the chosen one? i am actually afraid i might not take it if that really happen, and i might ended up crying in the office, making a shameful moment for myself, for one last time in PPE... gosh, thats the last thing i wish it will happened... if possible, i wanna hold my tears, and keep it to myself only... maybe can cry to baby... but definitely not other ppl in PPE...

i have been in MCT since Dec 06, unforgettable memories i had in MCT, been doing so many things that i never thought that i would do it, but i tried during this period...

i am confused sometimes, i am afraid of losing job, but on the other hand, i do hope this can help me to totally cut myself off from MCT... be retrenched, kicked out of MCT and from this f*cking situation i faced here in MCT... the f*cking environment that been bothering me for so long time... i often wanna run away from it, but have not been really consistent into it... so, if it happen to be me, i should feel happy on the other hand... coz, finally, i am leaving... leaving all the bad memories behind of me and start another new chapter of life, again... maybe its time for me to get back to KL to be with my family again...

god bless, bless me and the person who i care in MCT, to be able to go thru everything/ anything that might happen on next Monday...

Good luck everyone!!!

Birthday Gift from MCT

2008-07-24T16:24:00.005+08:00

went down to submit OT approval form to my HR, and CaiRong told me she has got something for me, and passed the gift voucher to me...

it is the birthday voucher from the company, i got a FM radio last year with $15 NTUC voucher... this year, we only got $20 NTUC voucher... well, better than nothing... $20... can buy lots of Chezzels, Pringles, Twisties.... and so on... muahahahhahahahaha!!! Am going to gain more weight if I really buy them all.... better to buy some prunes & prune juice.... >.^

Our Mighty Technician - Mr Alex Pang

2008-07-24T16:11:00.003+08:00

Alex - repairing Uncle Chiang's Nokie phone

a moment ago, Alex was helping Uncle Chiang to repair his phone, as his phone was drop on the floor, and caused it's speacker dropped.

with very high expectation with Alex, he finally got the phone repaired and function well after about 30 minutes of hand-shaking works.

i promised him that i will write this on my blog if he managed to repair the phone... so, Alex, this is for you, a complimentary blog to praise the mighty Alex of PPE/ CAM of Microcircuit Technology (S) Pte Ltd.

Freezing cold in PPE

2008-07-23T16:17:00.002+08:00

it is extremely cold today in the office... maybe it is becoz i have not fully recover yet... feel so lazy again and really wanna have a good sleep later when i reach home...

hope that tomorrow will be better for me...

I'm on Sick Leave... again... :-s

2008-07-22T16:00:00.003+08:00

yea... today am on sick leave again... i felt extremely not comfortable the whole day in the office, felt extremely cold although i was in my blue jacket, and not in the mood at all, i almost wanna start a fight with Alex, he was not feeling well too... and we both didn't seem to really in the mood to chat, but to argue... sorry Alex if i ever step on your tail, but i don't really mean that, just not in the mood... and so, i decided to get the medical chit from HR and went to see doc at night.

i told doctor that i don't feel good after i came back from the rainy BBQ, and i felt extremely cold whenever i am in an air-condition room... doctor then measured my body temperature and told me that i have fever, then he gave me a day to rest at home...

and so, here i am, sitting at home, writing my blog here, to express my feeling... i feel tired, sleepy, dizzy... but overall, i am still okie, as there is someone who is really care of me, shower me with all his cares, and make me really feel happy... he will send me text messages whenever he has the time, and he also called me up, to check if i am already recover from the fever... i feel so good for being pampered by him... thank you my dear...

Blue Moment

2008-07-20T13:25:00.003+08:00

i know that he is not in a good mood... definitely something bad happened on him, and according to him, i am so unlucky to get to see this side of him, coz normally he wont let ppl see this side of him...

well, i was thinking, am i really that unlucky? not really, to be positive, i am glad that you show this side of you to me, coz that means you treat me as a real friend, and you are sincere to me... although i still have some doubts in you (i do coz, i knew something that you did "behind" me), but i am glad that you willing to show other side of you to me.

my dear, i hope you are getting better by now... and as usual, we wont be contacting each other on Sunday, i don't know why, but if you choose not to contact me on weekends, its up to you... just enjoy your life always!

BBQ @ Raining Evening 190708

2008-07-20T08:59:00.003+08:00

oh... what a turn off... our BBQ of the year, has ended up in a heavy rain... only lasted for less than 4 hours... *sobsob*

as agreed, we (me, bp, alvin & wife, lirong, mengmeng & alex) meet up at Pioneer mall for the last minutes shopping... we brought drinks, hams, sausages, plastic cups, spoon, canned fruits, and a big container at last for the canned fruits punch. and we managed to reach our destination at 415pm... our delivery man was there waiting for us for about 15 minutes, and we was slightly late, and i felt so shame on it actually... :-s

xiaojian was the 1st to arrive after our arrival, followed by cecil, and other ppl like Ms Jen & her family, Leon & family, colleagues from QA dept (i dont know their name), Chaiwoon & Melissa, Yao & his son, Johnson & his pretty 'gf' - his daugther, Jane & Family, and last but not least, Shawn, the last who arrived and bring us this heavy rain, hahaha!!! pity to him that he didn't get to eat anything and we started to run for our life to avoid getting wet in the rain...

the party ended at around 8pm... and i reached home b4 9pm, finished shower at 920pm, then i online and see if anybody is free to chat with me... found no one at first, and then alvin sign in, and we talk for awhile... afterall, the party is not so perfect, but we still get to enjoy especially those who arrived early...

退后

2008-07-17T14:58:00.001+08:00

天空灰的像哭过

离开你以后

并没有更自由

酸酸的空气

嗅出我们的距离

一幕锥心的结局

像呼吸般无法停息

抽屉泛黄的日记

榨干了回忆

那笑容是傻气

你我的过去

被顺时针的忘记

缺氧过后的爱情

粗心的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错

只是忘了怎么退后

信誓旦旦给了承诺

却被时间扑了空

我知道我们都没有错

只是放手会比较好过

最美的爱情回忆里待续

Horrible Morning

2008-07-08T14:37:00.003+08:00

today, as usual, going to work in the morning... while reached office, greetings my dearest baby at work, and prepared for my breakfast, and start work...

at about 0830, uncle Jason ran up and shouting chemical on fire! we was shocked and uncle Chiang advised all of us to leave the company premises before anything bad happened... i was very much afraid as i once suffered for the fire night mare when i was a teenager... my heart pumping extremely fast and i was nervous too... i was thinking if i should wait for Alex as he has left his bag and went out from our office, then a girl from Drilling called to her boss, and her boss was asking her to quickly leave the office, so i decided to go down with Kumar at last...

we meet up with SuiLee & Loo at the entrance of Drilling dept and saw many of the workers gathered at the area, including some QA staffs as well, after 15 minutes of waiting at that area, uncle Chiang came to us and tell us that the fire is managed to be extinguished by our colleagues and the fire fighter shall turn up later, so, it is safe for us to return to work...

after we went back to our office, i have an urge to sms to Nelson to tell him about this incident, and i sms to him without any hesitation, but, he was too busy to return me a text... until i send him another sms after lunch hour, then he called me up, and told me that he is very busy with works... i was kinda affected by the way he did not return me a msg, but feel better after talking with him... i think i must control my feeling... don't wish to make things complicated as i am planning to proceed with my UK trip...

I cut my hair again...

2008-07-06T02:03:00.004+08:00

yea! i had my hair cut again today... after a bout 2 months of cutting it short, i make it slightly shorter with more layered done by pretty Vivian... hope my friends & family at KL will like this new hair style of mine... i really miss you guys so much...

just received somethings from my dearest sister at UK, a belated birthday card with a silver necklace, and a shirt from Topshop... oh... mei... i really love the shirt and necklace from you, but most of all, i love the birthday card the most... i love you and really miss u much!!! may god bless you and tom with lots of happiness!!! muacks!!!

Something's missed out...

2008-07-02T22:59:00.002+08:00

so... i was expecting that he won't be sending me any sms anymore... and as expected... i din get any single sms from him since morning up till now... i am crazy that i actually waiting for him to sms to me... see... i knew, if i don't control myself, it will end up to be another disaster in my life... and i know just how to stop him to approach to me... and looks like it really works... hahaha!!! nevermind if he is the easily give up type... i don't need a guy who do not have the patient in me...

today just booked for the bus ticket from First Coach at Novena Square... will be going home on 10 July at 7pm... miss all the family and friends in KL so much... and worry bout my dearest there... really hope to see them soon...

Lonely Mi...

2008-07-01T21:41:00.002+08:00

i think i am having some emotional problems... i feel extremely lonely nowadays...

i miss days with John, miss days when he is still my darling, and i am so desperately to find one to replace him recently... i am so lonely...

i have known someone who is quite care of me, but i know that he has no intention to build up a relationship with me, but i found that i am quite enjoy to hang out with him, and i have addicted to exchange sms with him almost every day, especially on Monday, and also i enjoy talking with him very much... he will call me when i told him i feel bored, erm... if he is free... i don't know why but i just can't help but to start missing him when i don't get his sms... i think this is because of the emotional problems i have recently... maybe its because he is here for me when i am lonely and i just let myself to enjoy the care that he provided for me... after what happened one year ago, i should never ever let myself to fall into a guy, or to develop my feeling so easily anymore...

oh god!!! please give me strength to face this loneliness and overtake the emotional me as soon as possible... i am so weak that i really need a big hug... maybe can ask from baby at work... Ganbatte LayFun!!!

July's Quote

2008-07-01T13:34:00.003+08:00

When men and women are able to respect and accept their differences, then love has a chance to blossom.

~John Gray~

Saturday outings... 280608

2008-06-29T13:05:00.003+08:00

went out for the whole day on Saturday...

had dated with ChaiWoon that we will be going to try out the restaurant at Holland Village, which actually, a new friend of mine is working there as a chef, so, after confirming everything, we decided to go there for lunch and also meet this new friend of mine there for the 1st time...

we had great lunch served by this friend - Nelson, and we had spent the whole afternoon there till 7pm. We left after i get my baby's text msg that she will be meeting up with me at BPP at 7.30pm...

i met up with baby at BPP around 8pm and we had our dinner at Delifrance bistro and after the dinner, we had a cup of tea at Starbucks... we have not been catching up with each other for a long period and we had a good time spending with each other...

thanks to ChaiWoon, Nelson and most of all, Baby for the companion on my Saturday...

I Wish You Love

2008-06-22T00:36:00.006+08:00

Goodbye...
No use leading with our chins...
This is where our story ends...
Never lovers, ever friends...

Goodbye...
Let our heart call it a day...
But before you walk away...
I sincerely want to say...

I wish you blue birds in the Spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this...
I wish you love...

And in July, a lemonade...
To cold you in some leafy glade
I wish you health, but more than wealth
I wish you love...

My breaking heart and I agree...
That you and I could never be...
So with my best, my very best
I set you (myself) free...

I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all, when snowflakes fall...
I wish you love...

I Wish You Love - Gloria Lynne

Sickening News

2008-06-17T19:01:00.004+08:00

today, I've revealed another ugly fact that happened around me... why oh why??? why can't people be more faithful to their very own partner? why??? okie.. i have not been faithful enough, and i do not want to cheat myself that i don't hold any responsibility for what happened before, but then, hey, since you are married, can't you be more faithful to your wife or to your partner? why do you wanna do such disgusting action behind her? i really look down on you! i am so disappointed to know this happening around me again... my friend, i am sorry that i can't tell you face to face what did i know, i think it is better not to let you know... perhaps, he will realize sooner or later, and he will be faithful to you again in the future... i hate people who has been not loyal to their own partner, and that's including myself... but I am learning to love myself back, as i knew, i didn't do that purposely... i am not innocent especially after i knew the truth, but i did not do everything intentionally... that is something i am very clear about...

just when can i leave this country? gosh!!!!!

Overnight at McD

2008-06-14T16:26:00.003+08:00

the 2 of us are really crazy... we spent the whole night at McD at Pioneer Mall...

Friday, i was on medical leave due to back pain, running nose & cough that made me can't sleep well for few weeks... it is either i can't sleep well every night and wake up several time in the mid-night, or the worst is, i can't sleep at all, til 2am in the morning... the doctor had issued one day medical cert for me so that i can have a good rest at home... and i did have good rest and sleep for almost the whole day... and doing some laundry too at home...

Chaiwoon msn-ed mi to go for a swim after her working hour, so i agree to go with her and we went there at 7pm... then after the swimming session, we decided to have a drink at McD nearby my house and we had called my colleague, BP Tan to join us as he is staying somewhere nearby and, i have promised him to introduce chaiwoon to him...

i went off after he reached as i have something to do at home, and i promised to return as soon as possible, coz i feel bad to left the two strangers alone... i returned after 30 minutes and found them talking happily with each other... and then i found out that they were college mate before... oh... what a small world... and they actually knew each other 8 years ago... i am truly happy for bring them for the meet up, as meeting up with old friend is truly exciting... and we chit-chatted till 2am and we let BP went back home coz, we girls still have lots to catch up with each other...

and these two crazy lady was sitting at McD till 730am this morning, then decided to go home after we took our breakfast... and guess what? we don't manage to sleep and we talked again on MSN for about another hour, and finally, i went for lunch with aunt and after i finished my lunch, i finally feel the sleepy bug biting me, and i get myself to sleep for about 2 hours... later will need to have dinner with some colleagues from MCT and i hope i get to sleep well tonight... tomorrow will have BBQ... ehehheheheh!!!

The Reason

2008-06-09T23:50:00.002+08:00

i just discovered the reason why something not up to me happened on my day... and found it really heart-aching, to know that something happened on that day that touched me, was actually, might be a trap for me to fall in... gosh... just how can i stop trusting people around me?

My New Laptop

2008-06-08T23:36:00.003+08:00

okie... i bought a new laptop and i am of coz currently very much addicted to it... and because of this new laptop, i slept at 4am dis morning... partly also cause by a fren who was chatting with me too last nite... and guess what? we chatted till 4am... gosh... and i am very sleepy for the whole day...

will talk more bout this new toy of mine soon... good nite everybody!!!

Duanwu Festival 端午节

2008-06-08T01:28:00.001+08:00

Dragon Boat Racing

Dragon Boat Festival racing in Macau

Zongzi: Rice dumpling with red bean filling

The Duanwu Festival is a Chinese traditional and statutory holiday. It is a public holiday in mainland China^[1]^[2] and in Taiwan, where it is known as the "Duanwu Festival". It is also a public holiday in Hong Kong and Macau, where it is known as Duen Ng Festival. Its alternative name in English is "Dragon Boat Festival", after one of the traditional activities for the holiday.

The Duanwu Festival has also been celebrated in other East Asian nations. For their equivalent or related celebrations, see Dano (Korean festival), Tết Đoan Ngọ (Vietnam), and Kodomo no hi (Japan).

The Duanwu Festival occurs on the fifth day of the fifth month of the Chinese calendar, giving rise to the alternative name of Double Fifth ^[3]. In 2008, this falls on 8 June. The focus of the celebrations include eating zongzi, which are large rice wraps, drink realgar wine, and race dragon boats.

History

Origins

The Duanwu Festival originated in ancient China. There are a number of theories about the origins of the festival. Today, the most commonly accepted version relates to the death of poet Qu Yuan in 278 BC, detailed below. There are, however, a number of competing theories.

Qu Yuan

The most well-known traditional story holds that the festival commemorates the death of poet Qu Yuan (c. 340 BC - 278 BC) of the ancient state of Chu, in the Warring States Period of the Zhou Dynasty. A descendant of the Chu royal house, Qu served in high offices. However, when the king decided to ally with the increasingly powerful state of Qin, Qu was banished for opposing the alliance. During his exile, Qu Yuan wrote a great deal of poetry, for which he is now remembered. Twenty-eight years later, Qin conquered the Chu capital. In despair. Qu Yuan committed suicide by drowning himself in the Miluo River on the fifth day of the fifth month.

It is said that the local people, who admired him, threw food into the river to feed the fish so that they would not eat Qu Yuan's body. This is said to be the origin of zongzi. The local people were also said to have paddled out on boats, either to scare the fish away or to retrieve his body. This is said to be the origin of dragon boat racing.

Wu Zixu

Despite the modern popularity of the Qu Yuan origin theory, in the former territory of the state of Wu the festival commemorated Wu Zixu (526 BC - 484 BC). Like Qu Yuan, Wu Zixu was a loyal advisor whose advice was ignored by the king to the detriment of the kingdom. Wu Zixu was forced to commit suicide by the king Fuchai, with his body thrown into the river on the fifth day of the fifth month. After his death, Wu Zixu was revered as a river god. In places such as Suzhou, in Jiangsu province, Wu Zixu is remembered during the Duanwu Festival to this day.

Pre-existing holiday

Modern researchers have theorised that the commemoration of Qu Yuan or Wu Zixu were superimposed onto an existing holiday tradition, but has subsequently overtaken the original significance.

One theory points to the traditional rituals of the Duanwu Festival, which mostly relate to avoiding diseases. Thus, it is said, Duanwu Festival originates from rituals designed to avoid disease during the mid-summer months (corresponding to the fifth month of the Chinese calendar).

Another theory, advocated by Wen Yiduo, is that the Duanwu Festival had its origins in dragon worship. Support is drawn from two key traditions of the festival: the zongzi and dragon boat racing. Throwing food (zongzi) into the river is said to represent offerings to the dragon king, while dragon boat racing comes from the worship of the dragon, combined with the tradition of visiting friends and family on canoes.

One view is that the festival is a celebration that is characteristic of ancient Chinese agrarian society: the celebration of the harvest of winter wheat. Offerings would be made to gods and spirits on this date: in the ancient Yue, dragon kings; in the ancient Chu, Qu Yuan; in the ancient Wu, Wu Zixu (as a river god); in ancient Korea, mountain gods (see Dano (Korean festival)). As interactions between different regions increased, these similar festivals were eventually merged under the same name.

In the early years of the Republic of China, Duan Wu was also celebrated as "Poets' Day," due to Qu Yuan's status as China's first poet of personal renown.

Activities

The three most widespread activities for the Duanwu Festival are eating (and preparing) zongzi, an angular rice ball wrapped in reed or bamboo leaves; drinking realgar wine, and racing dragon boats.

Other common activities include hanging up icons of Zhong Kui (a mythic guardian figure), hanging up mugwort and calamus, taking long walks, and wearing perfumed medicine bags. Other traditional activities including a game of making an egg stand at noon, and writing spells. All of these activities, together with the drinking of realgar wine, are designed to ward off disease or evil.

June's Quote

2008-06-03T15:19:00.006+08:00

The way to love anything is to realise that it might be lost.

~G.K. Chesterton~

Happy Birthday to Mi!

2008-06-03T13:45:00.004+08:00

Yes, today is my 27th birthday, i am 27 now, going to 30 very soon.. And i am a hot single lady in town, haha!

Anyway, Kaili was here wid Saimun for da past weekend, and we spent da weekend together with Honwen n his college mates from kl, quite enjoyable outings wid dem and i did buy lots of stuff for myself.. And Kaixin is da 1st person who wished by calling me at 11pm on my birthday eve, followed by Chaiwoon's sms at 1130pm den da most suprise was da sms from John, he is da one who text me on time, den by Meiyen, Choiyen n Kaili..

I got my youngest sista's call early in da morning at 830am, den got Cecil n Puiyee's text msg too, also recieved text msg from my dear Chinyee..

got email's wishes from Rizza at my hotmail, hallmark's e-card from my dear Erica at US, friendster msg from Janice and William, friendster comments from Kathy n dear Meipeng, facebook wall msg from dear Meiyen, multiply msg from Andy, most of all, Chaihar has wished me too on her msn messenger's title.. Laney talked with me by MSN too dis afternoon while she actually jz woke up der in UK.. John has called me too to wish me happy birthday..

Yeetyng has text to me finally at 9pm as i was waiting for her text till my neck has gone longer.. Last, but not least, Puiyee called me too, and i am really happy for all da wishes from all da people dat i care..

Now dat i know very much dat i am blessed with so many blessing frens n their warmest wishes.. I went to Jurong Point and manage to buy my Adidas shoe and had lunch at Pizzahut with Aunt, Katherine n little Evelyn.. They too bought me a birthday cake at Begawan Solo, n celebrated my birthday with me..

I am really happy for whatever i got, even der is still one more person who promised will to call me but has not call till now, but am really happy for everything i get on today, my 27th birthday.. Thank u!

(written: 02June08, 2359)

today, i finally got her wishes... my baby... she send me a friendster comment... and that is really sweet... thank you baby... you know that really means a lot for me... if you are reading this, i was not working on my birthday but went for shopping with my aunt, ah gal & meimei at Jurong Point yesterday... miss you much and hope to see you soon...

Happy Birthday to John

2008-05-26T13:24:00.003+08:00

it was his 28th birthday yesterday, 25 May 2008... and it is the 1st time we did not spend it together since 2004... a bit of unusual, a bit of down, but most of all, i am still able to handle the emotion...

he called me on his birthday eve, asking me to wish him happy birthday, i told him it is not the time yet, and i will call him on time, he then told me that he will be entering a transformer room at Tampines Mall and will need to switch off his cell phone, so, he called me up to wish him happy birthday in advance...

well, i guess, he too like me, not used to the break up relationship with me... but, pass is pass.. i know that i have let him go... and am very proud of myself for able to let go of this guy that i have loved for the past 4 1/2 years... it is not easy at all... but i did it... and am moving on happier without him as my "boyfriend"...

being single is of coz a bit lonely, but, i feel it better than being in a relationship but feeling alone... haha!!!

McGRIDDLES @ McDonalds, Jurong Point

2008-05-11T12:19:00.004+08:00

my oh my!!! i have went for a Sunday breakfast with my dearest auntie @ McDonalds, Jurong Point this morning... auntie has redeemed a Sausage Muffin with egg for herself while i ordered a set of the latest breakfast meal - McGRIDDLES with EGG...

few days ago, when i was in the office and chit chatting with Alex and Rommel and we talked bout this new breakfast meal of McD, Rommel told me that the Bread of this new breakfast is very good as it is made of the Hot Cake, but he said the meat is not good coz the its too dry... but this morning, when i tried mine, my oh my... it is supa dupa yummy.... the bread, in fact, the hot cake is soft and the meat is so juicy... with the egg and a slice of cheese... wow!!!! i had a very good breakfast this morning... and not to forget a cup of hot coffee...

不想懂得

2008-05-06T12:10:00.000+08:00

當世界　不知不覺的變了　
有時候　我懷念以前的我　
作的夢　雖然遠遠的　
想像是　一種快樂　
擁有了　同時也失去什麼　
而眷戀　原來會帶來軟弱　
你讓我在霧裡成熟　心開始曲折

我不想捨得　不想懂得　
是誰惹誰　言不由衷　
說謊傷害　都是不安犯的錯　
怕抱不緊什麼
我不想捨得　不想懂得　
誰說割愛　才更深刻彼此依賴　
是愛不是負荷　互相照顧就是幸福的

我不想捨得　不想懂得　
誰說割愛　才更深刻彼此依賴　
是愛不是負荷　能握著手就是　感動的

我願意　一秒鐘放棄全宇宙　
擠在只有我們　緊靠的小星球

我多不捨得　多不懂得　
誰說割愛　才更深刻　
彼此依賴　是愛不是負荷　能握著手就是　感動的

Friends

2008-05-02T13:43:00.002+08:00

As usual, we were chit chatting with each other during lunch time, and today’s topic is FRIEND…

Alex was saying that a guy working in the canteen is my boyfriend, of coz, o reacted fast and denied for the untrue statement, he then said, he is a guy, and he should be considered as my boy-friend, not girl-friend, I then told him that guy cannot even consider as my friend as I don’t even know his name. I was asking my baby bout the minimum requirement for her to consider a person as her friend, she told me that as long as that person do good things on her, then they can be consider as her friend. I told her my minimum requirement is at least I know the name of that person. She said something quite true that if those people do something good to me, even though I don’t know their name, they should be considered as my friend too… I, somehow agree on this…

She then asked me a question, what bout those people who do good things to me and on the other hand, hurt me as well… I hesitated for awhile and there are few people flashed back in my mind… yes... There are some people who did good & bad things to me, who I love and hate at the same time… I told her, I can only see them as a stranger in my life, as I can’t love them anymore and I do can’t hate them on the other hand… I can’t love the person who hurts me but I can’t hate them as they was once touched my heart and being very good to me… it is very hard to forgive or to forget everything… the best is to ignore… yes… I will just ignore… although it is really hard to do so, and at the beginning stage of it, it is so difficult for me to ignore, I felt pains, I felt left out, I felt sad, I felt down, hatred full of whole body, I wanna yell, I wanna shout, I wanna cried, but, I have overcome this finally… I am plastic, I am not so truth, I am not transparent, and I am for sure, still a great pretender… but this is the only mask I can wear in front of my so far, yet so close “strangers”, besides being plastic, I don’t know how should I be…

Am I not sincere? No, for those who knew me for long, and knew me well, they knew how vulnerable I am… I am now just trying to do something that can protect myself… from being hurt by someone that I might trust wrongly, or love wrongly… be it a friend or a lover, I just wanna to protect myself, my heart, my feeling, my soul… I don’t wish to be hurt anymore… till now, I still trust people easily, but that day, I read a quote from a shirt, love everyone, but trust only a few… I think I have to bear this on my mind…

Of coz, I did good things and bad things too, and I did hurt other people’s feelings too, all I can said is, nobody is perfect, and I am just an ordinary girl, I am selfish, I am greedy when I have the desire for something… so, please forgive me if I ever hurt your feeling, and I know I can’t expect the persons I hurt before to forget, as I, myself can’t forget too… but I am learning to forgive…

May's Quote

2008-05-02T11:23:00.005+08:00

The love we give away is the only love we keep.

~ Elbert Hubbard ~

离人

2008-04-23T18:20:00.002+08:00

银色小船摇摇晃晃弯弯
悬在绒绒的天上
你的心事三三俩俩蓝蓝
停在我幽幽心上
你说情到深处人怎能不孤独
爱到浓时就牵肠挂肚
我的行李孤孤单单散散惹惆怅

离人放逐到边界
彷佛走入第五个季节
昼夜乱了和谐潮泛任性涨退
字典里没春天

离人挥霍著眼泪
回避还在眼前的离别
你不敢想明天
我不肯说再见
有人说一次告别
天上就会有颗星又熄灭

银色小船摇摇晃晃弯弯
悬在绒绒的天上
你的心事三三俩俩蓝蓝
停在我幽幽心上
你说情到深处人怎能不孤独
爱到浓时就牵肠挂肚
我的行李孤孤单单散散惹惆怅

离人放逐到边界
彷佛走入第五个季节
昼夜乱了和谐潮泛任性涨退
字典里没春天

离人挥霍著眼泪
回避还在眼前的离别
你不敢想明天
我不肯说再见
有人说一次告别
天上就会有颗星又熄灭
离人挥霍著眼泪
回避还在眼前的离别
你不肯说再见
我不敢想明天
有人说一次告别
天上就会有颗星又熄灭

Explosion

2008-04-22T12:10:00.002+08:00

An explosion just happened in our drilling department an hour ago...

It was a such a big shock when mi n my baby heard the sound of the explosion and we quickly get our bag and prepared to run on time...

But luckily, when uncle chiang and alex went to downstair, they found out that it is just an air pipe exploded... and not causing any injuries to the workers downstairs, and most of all, we are all safe...

hope this accident will not happen anymore...

Chickenpox

2008-04-21T18:45:00.001+08:00

Chickenpox is a highly contagious illness caused by primary infection with varicella zoster virus (VZV). It generally begins with conjunctival and catarrhal symptoms and then characteristic spots appearing in two or three waves, mainly on the body and head rather than the hands and becoming itchy raw pockmarks, small open sores which heal mostly without scarring.
Chickenpox has a 10-21 day incubation period and is spread easily through aerosolized droplets from the nasopharynx of ill individuals or through direct contact with secretions from the rash. Following primary infection there is usually lifelong protective immunity from further episodes of chickenpox.
Chickenpox is rarely fatal, although it is generally more severe in adults than in children. Pregnant women and those with a suppressed immune system are at highest risk of serious complications. The most common late complication of chicken pox is shingles, caused by reactivation of the varicella zoster virus decades after the initial episode of chickenpox.

Signs and symptoms
Chickenpox is a highly contagious disease that spreads from person to person by direct contact or through the air from an infected person's coughing or sneezing. Touching the fluid from a chickenpox blister can also spread the disease. A person with chickenpox is contagious from one to two days before the rash appears until all blisters have formed scabs. This may take 5-10 days.[1] It takes from 10-21 days after contact with an infected person for someone to develop chickenpox.[2]
The chickenpox lesions (blisters) start as a two to four millimeter red papule which develops an irregular outline (a rose petal). A thin-walled, clear vesicle (dew drop) develops on top of the area of redness. This "dew drop on a rose petal" lesion is very characteristic for chickenpox. After about eight to 12 hours the fluid in the vesicle gets cloudy and the vesicle breaks leaving a crust. The fluid is highly contagious, but once the lesion crusts over, it is not considered contagious. The crust usually falls off after seven days sometimes leaving a crater-like scar. Although one lesion goes through this complete cycle in about seven days, another hallmark of chickenpox is the fact that new lesions crop up every day for several days. Therefore it may be a week before new lesions stop appearing and existing lesions crust over. Children are not to be sent back to school until all lesions have crusted over.[3]
Chickenpox is highly contagious and is spread through the air when infected people cough or sneeze, or through physical contact with fluid from lesions on the skin. Zoster, also known as shingles, is a reactivation of chickenpox and may also be a source of the virus for susceptible children and adults. It is not necessary to have physical contact with the infected person for the disease to spread. Those infected can spread chickenpox before they know they have the disease - even before any rash develops. People with chickenpox, in fact, can infect others from about two days before the rash develops until all the sores have crusted over, usually four or five days after the rash starts.

Infection in Pregnancy and Neonates
Varicella infection in pregnant women can lead to viral transmission via the placenta and infection of the foetus. If infection occurs during the first 28 weeks of gestation, this can lead to foetal varicella syndrome (also known as congenital varicella syndrome). Effects on the foetus can range in severity from underdeveloped toes and fingers to severe anal and bladder malformation. Possible problems include:
Damage to brain: encephalitis, microcephaly, hydrocephaly, aplasia of brain
Damage to the eye (optic stalk, optic cap, and lens vesicles), microphthalmia, cataracts, chorioretinitis, optic atrophy
Other neurological disorder: damage to cervical and lumbosacral spinal cord, motor/sensory deficits, absent deep tendon reflexes, anisocoria/Horner's syndrome
Damage to body: hypoplasia of upper/lower extremities, anal and bladder sphincter dysfunction
Skin disorders: (cicatricial) skin lesions, hypopigmentation
Infection late in gestation or immediately post-partum is referred to as neonatal varicella. Maternal infection is associated with premature delivery. The risk of the baby developing the disease is greatest following exposure to infection in the period 7 days prior to delivery and up to 7 days post-partum. The nenoate may also be exposed to the virus via infectious siblings or other contacts, but this is of less concern if the mother is immune. Newborns who develop symptoms are at a high risk of pneumonia and other serious complications of the disease. [4]

Causes
Chickenpox is a highly contagious illness caused by acute primary (initial) infection with varicella zoster virus (VZV).

Pathophysiology
Chickenpox is usually acquired by the inhalation of airborne respiratory droplets from an infected host. The highly contagious nature of VZV explains the epidemics of chickenpox that spread through schools as one child who is infected quickly spreads the virus to many classmates. High viral titers are found in the characteristic vesicles of chickenpox; thus, viral transmission may also occur through direct contact with these vesicles, although the risk is lower.
After initial inhalation of contaminated respiratory droplets, the virus infects the conjunctivae or the mucosae of the upper respiratory tract. Viral proliferation occurs in regional lymph nodes of the upper respiratory tract 2-4 days after initial infection and is followed by primary viremia on postinfection days 4-6. A second round of viral replication occurs in the body's internal organs, most notably the liver and the spleen, followed by a secondary viremia 14-16 days postinfection. This secondary viremia is characterized by diffuse viral invasion of capillary endothelial cells and the epidermis. VZV infection of cells of the malpighian layer produces both intercellular and intracellular edema, resulting in the characteristic vesicle.
Exposure to VZV in a healthy child initiates the production of host immunoglobulin G (IgG), immunoglobulin M (IgM), and immunoglobulin A (IgA) antibodies; IgG antibodies persist for life and confer immunity. Cell-mediated immune responses are also important in limiting the scope and the duration of primary varicella infection. After primary infection, VZV is hypothesized to spread from mucosal and epidermal lesions to local sensory nerves. VZV then remains latent in the dorsal ganglion cells of the sensory nerves. Reactivation of VZV results in the clinically distinct syndrome of herpes zoster (shingles).

Diagnosis
The diagnosis of varicella is primarily clinical. In a non-immunized individual with typical prodromal symptoms associated with the appropriate appearing rash occurring in "crops", no further investigation would normally be undertaken.
If further investigation is undertaken, confirmation of the diagnosis can be sought through either examination of the fluid within the vesicles, or by testing blood for evidence of an acute immunologic reposnse. Vesicle fluid can be examined with a Tsanck smear, or better with examination for direct fluorescent antibody. The fluid can also be "cultured", whereby attempts are made to grow the virus from a fluid sample. Blood tests can be used to identify a response to acute infection (IgM) or previous infection and subsequent immunity (IgE).[5]
Prenatal diagnosis of foetal varicella infection can be performed using ultrasound, though a delay of 5 weeks following primary maternal infection is advised. A PCR (DNA) test of the mother's amniotic fluid can also be performed, though the risk of spontaneous abortion due to the amniocentesis procedure is higher than the risk of the baby developing foetal varicella syndrome.[4]

Prevention
Main article: Varicella vaccine
A varicella vaccine has been available since 1995 to inoculate against the disease. Some countries require the varicella vaccination or an exemption before entering elementary school. Protection is not lifelong and further vaccination is necessary five years after the initial immunization.[6]
In the United Kingdom, varicella antibodies are measured in women with no history of the disease as part of routine of prenatal care. By 2005 all National Health Service personnel had determined their immunity and been immunized if they were non-immune and have direct patient contact. Population-based immunization against varicella is not otherwise practiced in the UK. It is feared that there would be a greater number of cases of shingles in adults, until the vaccination was given to the entire population—because adults who have had chickenpox as a child are less likely to have shingles in later life if they have been exposed occasionally to the chickenpox virus (for example by their children). This is because the exposure acts as a booster vaccine.[7][8]

Treatment
There is no evidence to support the effectiveness of topical application of calamine lotion, a topical barrier preparation containing zinc oxide in spite of its wide usage and excellent safety profile.[9] It is important to maintain good hygiene and daily cleaning of skin with warm water to avoid secondary bacterial infection.
If exposure to varicella in certain 'at risk' populations is confirmed (immunosuppressed individuals, pregnant seronegative women, neonates), anti-varicella zoster immunoglobulin may be given prior to onset of disease symptoms.
Infection in otherwise healthy adults tends to be more severe and active; treatment with antiviral drugs (e.g. acyclovir) is generally advised. Patients of any age with depressed immune systems or extensive eczema are at risk of more severe disease and should also be treated with antiviral medication. In the U.S., 55 percent of chickenpox deaths are in the over-20 age group, even though they are a tiny fraction of the cases.

Prognosis
Chickenpox infection tends to be milder the younger a child is and symptomatic treatment, with a little sodium bicarbonate in baths or antihistamine medication to ease itching,[10] and paracetamol (acetaminophen) to reduce fever, are widely used. Ibuprofen can also be used on advice of a doctor. However, aspirin or products containing aspirin must not be given to children with chickenpox (or any fever-causing illness), as this risks causing the serious and potentially fatal Reye's Syndrome. [11]
Symptoms in adults tend to be more severe, though incidence is much less common. Infection in adults is associated with greater morbidity and mortality due to pneumonia, hepatitis and encephalitis. In particular, up to 10% of pregnant women with chickenpox develop pneumonia, the severity of which increases with onset later in gestation. In England and Wales, 75% of deaths due to chickenpox are in adults. [4]
Inflammation of the brain, or encephalitis, can occur in immunocompromised individuals. This is more dangerous with shingles.[12]
Necrotizing fasciitis [13] is also a rare complication.
Patients with Crohn's disease or any IBD, because of the use of immunosuppressive drugs, are at serious risk of complications from varicella zoster virus.
Later in life, any chickenpox viruses that remain dormant in the nerves can reactivate, causing shingles.
Secondary bacterial infection of skin lesions, manifesting as impetigo, cellulitis, and erysipelas, is the most common complication in healthy children.
o Staphylococci and streptococci are the most commonly implicated bacterial pathogens. o Bacterial superinfection may predispose to scarring. Localized bacterial superinfection rarely may manifest in septicemia, culminating in secondary bacterial pneumonia, otitis media, or necrotizing fasciitis.
Disseminated primary varicella infection, usually seen in the immunocompromised or adult populations, may have high morbidity. Ninety percent of cases of varicella pneumonia occur in the adult population. Rarer complications of disseminated chickenpox also include myocarditis, hepatitis, and glomerulonephritis.
Central nervous system complications of primary VZV infection may occur, albeit very rarely. Reye syndrome, Guillain-Barré syndrome, acute cerebellar ataxia, and encephalitis have all been documented to occur after VZV infection.
Thrombocytopenia and purpura secondary to VZV infection have been described in more than 100 patients.
o Hemorrhagic complications are more common in the immunocompromised or immunosuppressed populations, although healthy children and adults have been affected. Five major clinical syndromes have been described: febrile purpura, malignant chickenpox with purpura, postinfectious purpura, purpura fulminans, and anaphylactoid purpura.
o These syndromes have variable courses, with febrile purpura being the most benign of the syndromes and having an uncomplicated outcome. In contrast, malignant chickenpox with purpura is a grave clinical condition that has a mortality rate of greater than 70%. The etiology of these hemorrhagic chickenpox syndromes is not known.

Epidemiology
Primary varicella is an endemic disease. Cases of varicella are seen throughout the year but, like other viruses spread by the respiratory route eg. measles and rubella, they are seen more commonly in the winter and early spring. This is unlike that for enteroviruses and lends some support to the view that varicella is spread mainly by the respiratory route. Herpes zoster, in contrast, occurs sporadically and evenly throughout the year. Varicella is one of the classic diseases of childhood, with the highest prevalence occurring in the 4 - 10 years old age group. Like rubella, infection is uncommon in preschool children. Varicella is highly communicable, with an attack rate of 90% in close contacts. Most people become infected before adulthood but 10% of young adults remain susceptible. However, this pattern of infection is not universal, eg. in rural India, varicella is predominantly a disease of adults, the mean age of infection being 23.4 years. It was suggested that this could be due to interference by other respiratory viruses that the children are exposed to at an early age.
Historically, varicella has been a disease predominantly affecting preschool and school-aged children. Although mostly noted in preschool and primary levels, the said disease has also been noticed among adults, with the pocks being more darker andthe scars more prominent than their younger counterparts.

History
One history of medicine book credits Giovanni Filippo (1510–1580) of Palermo with the first description of varicella (chickenpox). Subsequently in the 1600s, an English physician named Richard Morton described what he thought a mild form of smallpox as "chicken pox." Later, in 1767, a physician named William Heberden, also from England, was the first physician to clearly demonstrate that chickenpox was different from smallpox. However, it is believed the name chickenpox was commonly used in earlier centuries before doctors identified the disease.
There are many explanations offered for the origin of the name chickenpox:
Samuel Johnson suggested that the disease was "less dangerous", thus a "chicken" version of the pox;
the specks that appear looked as though the skin was pecked by chickens;
the disease was named after chick peas, from a supposed similarity in size of the seed to the lesions;
the term reflects a corruption of the Old English word giccin, which meant itching.
As "pox" also means curse, in medieval times some believed it was a plague brought on to curse children by the use of black magic.
From ancient times, neem has been used by Indians to alleviate the external symptoms of itching and to minimise scarring. Neem baths (neem leaves and a dash of turmeric powder in water) are commonly given for the duration. Neem branches are hung at the entrance of households to announce that illness to visitors. Neem branches are kept handy by the affected person to gently brush the skin, to soothe the itching sensation.
During the medieval era, oatmeal was discovered to soothe the sores, and oatmeal baths are today still commonly given to relieve itching.

Chicken Pox or Chicken Flue? :p

2008-04-21T18:10:00.002+08:00

well, today, office is in a mess coz Rommel is sick... Communication Flue = Chicken Pox (please lar uncle... just said chicken pox so that everybody can understand mah... :p)

so sorry to hear that an old man gets chicken pox as there is a saying that if you get this disease when you are aging, then you will need to suffer a lot... so, i hope that he will not suffer too much and will be able to get back to work after 2 weeks of "vacation"...

haha!!! uncle... you was envying on my 2 months long vacation, and now its your turn... but you are luckier than me as you get paid for it... get well soon yah....

Gone with the wind...

2008-04-12T17:09:00.002+08:00

today is the dateline i set for me n john... up til now, he has not contact with me at all... be it a call or a text msg... i guess its really the end for us...

will it be easy for me to let it go? well, i know that it will not be easy for me to do so, but i must do it, for my good sake... if he really loves me, then he has to work out something to prove that he needs me so much... but i dont think that he loves me... it has been bout 2 weeks that we din contact with each other...

god bless...

Break up...... ?!

2008-04-10T19:52:00.001+08:00

i want to BREAK UP!!!!

Yellow = Dangerous

2008-04-07T17:28:00.002+08:00

haha!!! i was thinking that PINK could be dangerous on Monday, but today, the most dangeruous colour is YELLOW... very unexpected baby~~~

是放手的时候了？

2008-04-06T12:23:00.002+08:00

已经快要５年了，我们在一起，不，应该是我们分分合合了将近５年的时间了，当身边的朋友都成双成对的成家立业，我们却仍徘徊在彼此的心门之外．不只是他的爱不确实，就连我自己也不再确定自己的心意了。

最近，我的好朋友竟然建议我不如试着和另外一个男生交往吧！他是一个中学时期的中学时期的同学，我们已经认识了将近十二年了，但是，我并不认为他喜欢我，虽然，Ｎ年前他曾经有那么一次问我当他的女朋友好吗？当时，我并没有答应，现在还真有那么一点的后悔呢！

很烦！！！　心里面喜欢的是一个很可能是色魔的男人，可是，他却该死的，非常吸引我的注意力。我实在忘不了和他在一起的点点滴滴，甚至于最近，我还为他庆生呢！身边有一个自己爱了将近５年的他，但是，两人已经比较像是亲人多于爱人了，爱的火花，早在很久以前就消失了，只是我自己一直不愿意放弃这段自己付出了很多的感情，一直在自欺欺人。至于这个中学同学，老实说，我对他从没有过心动的感觉，但是，曾经自己却和一个朋友说过感觉是可以培养的，也曾经见证过好朋友的ｃａｓｅ，感觉真的可以培养的，但是，前提是，他是真的喜欢我吧，如果他根本没有这个意思呢？我不可能去逼迫一个自己对他没有感觉，而他也对自己没有感觉的朋友来喜欢自己吧？

Ｊｏｈｎ真得令我很失望，从我回到新加坡工作以来，别说是电话，就连简讯也没有发过一封给我。叫我怎么能不心寒呢？就连我ｃａｌｌ他，我们谈话也不会超过一分钟，是一分钟。很恐怖吧！真的哀莫大于心死。

很乱！很迷失！很想就这样把所有的烦恼抛于脑后，远走他乡，让一切从新再来，从头开始。

April's Quote

2008-04-02T18:39:00.003+08:00

Love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking together in the same direction.

~ Antonie de Saint - Exupery ~

Back to Singapore!!!

2008-03-30T12:42:00.002+08:00

finally... i am back to Singapore again!!!!

got my passport done on last Wednesday and came back to Singapore on Thursday... i got my dearest aunty to pick me up at Jurong East Interchange... I have made a call to Uncle Chiang when I was at the interchange to report myself... haha!!! and when i reached home, i decided to call up to our HR dept to arrange a time to get the form for mysellf to MOM...

back to office on Friday morning, guess what? the 1st person i saw was Rommel... the uncle... then of coz i went to my baby straight away... and we chit chat non stop... then Cecil came with her baby inside her body... she looks pretty good... and she told us that it was Rommel's birthday... oh... happy belated birthday... :p and of coz, Mr Pangit - Alex, we talked about the facebook game as usual, and he reminded me to report myself to Ms Jennifer... and after a short conversation with her, i went to HR to get my form done...

settled the submission at MOM at around 3pm, and i rush for a date with my friend, as it was my dear friend's birthday too... happy birthday to my dear friend...

am really happy now coz i finally got to start work on Monday again!!! Hope to have a great start again this time!!!

Passport Updates...

2008-03-25T13:30:00.002+08:00

OMG!!!!! this Stupid Immigration Office is really making me so SICK of them!!!!!

I called them yesterday morning, this time is a lady who talked to me, she asked me when can I make the payment, i asked her back, as long as you approved my application, I can make the payment anytime... again, she asked me to call back in the afternoon and she will get my file out to let her boss sign, according to her, her boss is VERY BUSY and always goes outstation. I am wondering, why do an immigration officer needs to travel so often for his duty? and are there only one person can sign on the documents? I have submitted my case since Feb 15, and dun tell me that the officer has gone outstation since then... I am very very angry and disappointed on this kind of attitude of our government... what kind of service is this? dragging your people's time and trying to hint for extra money? Duh... I felt so sick and so tired to talk to them...

Back to the story, so i did call back in the afternoon again, the same lady talked to me, she asked again the same question, when can i make the payment, this time, i asked her how much i should pay, she told me RM300 for the passport, thats fine, then she told me i must go to their office, then only they will take out my file to let their boss sign, if their boss is not in, they will ask the boss's assistant to sign... what the hell!!! in the end also she never tell me if my application is approve or not!!!! Damn it!!!!!!!

I really wanna know is there any way to lodge a complaint bout this kind of case... i don't understand at all, i accompanied my friend, ChanYong, for his lost of passport case in KL, the Immigration Officer interviewed him on the spot and gave him a card and asked him to go the the Immigration office again after one month and make the payment to get his new passport. See, he doesn't need to call to ensure if his application is approved, he can go to make payment directly and get his passport after one month. Why so much different? WHY????????????????

Passport Updates

2008-03-19T00:25:00.002+08:00

i am very disappointed with Malaysia Immigration!!!!! I supposed to know the result from the Immigration on my passport application, if they approve or reject on my application.... i called them early in the morning at 8am on Monday, as instructed by the officer that i talked with on last Thursday, he then told me that his boss is outstation and will be back on Tuesday, asked me to call back on Tuesday as all the files are inside his boss room... fine, i then called back to the office and thinking of to tell my superior on this issue and hope to get to get back to work in Wednesday, if i can get my passport on Tuesday...

unfortunately, when i called again on Tuesday 815am, the officer told me to call back on next Monday as his boss is still at outstation and will only get back on next Monday... i was so on fire and i scold the man in the phone... i asked him what is the result of their investigation after one month and till now they still can't get me an answer whether they approve on my application.... i am so angry and i cried after i hang up the phone... i am really really hope to get back to work soon... i have not work for more than one month and i feel myself so useless for being so free... and now... i still need to wait for another week to go... with no confirm answer whether i will get the passport or not....

i am so speechless now... really have nothing to say... very disappointed with my own country's government department...

Going back to JB

2008-03-12T16:45:00.002+08:00

oh yea... i will go back to JB on tomorrow morning lor... very complicated feeling in my heart... of coz i wish to get back to work as soon as i can, but, on the other hand, home is the best place to hang around with... especially during this period of staying, i managed to meet up with many of my friends and i can feel that my family & friends really miss me a lot... feel hard to go now... i am sure i will cry in the bus tomorrow especially my mum is going to send me to the bus terminal... i really hope i can be stronger and more independent so that my parents especially my mum won't get to worry bout me too much...

anyway, must be more practical now... wish to get back my passport on time so that i can get back to work on monday... i know my department really needs me a lot... haha!!! good luck to me, okay?

听妈妈的话

2008-03-12T15:31:00.002+08:00

a very nice song that makes me cry everytime i listen to it... very touching and everytime when i listen to it, i will think of my mum and i will miss her again... Jay sang this song for his mum, and i wanna dedicate this song to my mum too... mama I love you always & forever!!!

小朋友你是否有很多问号
为什么别人在那看漫画我却在学画画对着钢琴说话
别人在玩游戏我却靠在墙壁背我的ABC

我说我要一个大大的飞机但却得到一台旧旧录音机
为什么要听妈妈的话长大后你就会开始懂了这段话

长大后我开始明白
为什么我跑得比别人快飞得比别人高
将来大家看的都是我画的漫画大家唱的都是我写的歌
妈妈的辛苦不让你看见温暖的食谱在她心里面
有空就多多握握她的手把手牵着一起梦游

听妈妈的话别让她受伤想快快长大才能保护她
美丽的白发幸福中发芽天使的魔法温暖中慈祥

在你的未来音乐是你的王牌拿王牌谈个恋爱
唉!我不想把你教坏还是听妈妈的话吧晚点再恋爱吧
我知道你未来的路但妈比我更清楚

你会开始学其他同学在书包写东写西
但我建议最好写妈妈我会用功读书
用功读书怎么会从我嘴巴说出
不想你输所以要叫你用功读书
妈妈织给你的毛衣你要好好的收着
因为母亲节到时我要告诉她我还留着
对了我会遇到周润发
所以你可以跟同学炫耀赌神未来是你爸爸

我找不到童年写的情书你写完不要送人
因为过两天你会在操场上捡到
你会开始喜欢上流行歌因为张学友开始准备唱吻别

听妈妈的话别让她受伤想快快长大才能保护她
美丽的白发幸福中发芽天使的魔法温暖中慈祥
听妈妈的话别让她受伤想快快长大才能保护她

青花瓷

2008-03-10T17:51:00.004+08:00

词：方文山曲：周杰伦

从被勾勒出青花笔锋浓转淡　屏层鸟绘的牡丹一如你梳妆
黯然腾香透过窗心事我了然　宣纸上皱边直尺各一半
油色渲染侍女图因为被失藏　而你嫣然的一笑如含苞待放
你的美一缕飘散　去到我去不了的地方

＊天正在等烟雨　而我在等你　炊烟嫋嫋升起　隔江千万里
　在平地书刻你房间上的飘影　就当我为遇见你伏笔
　天正在等烟雨　而我在等你　月色被打捞起　掩盖了结局
　如传世的青花瓷在独自美丽　一眼的笑意

涩白花青的景已跃然於碗底　临摹宋体落款时却惦记着你
你隐藏在药效里千年的秘密　急溪里犹如羞花沾落地
林外芭蕉　惹咒语　梦幻的铜绿，而我路过那江南小镇的等你
在泼墨山水画里　你从墨色深处被隐去

My Best Friend's Wedding

2008-03-10T16:51:00.003+08:00

it has been about more than 1 week from now... and it was my best friend's wedding on the 1st of March 2008... KaiLi & SaiMun...

from the bottom of my heart, i really wish the two of them to have a happily ever after life after this official wedding ceremony with the families and friends... i hope they will know the right way to communicate with each other and always tolerance with each other...

my dear, 要幸福哦！！！

100plus trap?!

2008-03-10T16:33:00.003+08:00

my family bought a carton of 100Plus during CNY... due to not so many visitors coming to my place for bai nian, we have many left over of cny biscuit, and of coz, the 100Plus has no one drink except the family members and i was the one who drank the most... coz of the heaty wheather, i drank almost everyday every morning...

one morning, i was about to get some 100plus from the carton to store in the fridge, i found one can of the 100plus is empty, i tot my sister is fooling me around, so i took it out and saw that it was not my sister trying to feel me but the 100plus is empty ever since... i found a hole on the bottom of the can... and it is just like how the scene i watch from the hongkong drama that the vacant in a hotel use the same tactic to avoid from paying the drinks they took in the hotel room...

oh gosh!!! this is so ridiculous leh... it was store in my room inside the carton... which mean, it has been empty before we bought it lor... sigh... like that also can wor? really 世事如棋！！！

Meeting ups

2008-02-28T20:30:00.002+08:00

went to find Lenny after she called me to interrupt my watching for the Oscar academy live on Monday morning...

reached my old office (the new building actually, more accurate to said my ex company) around 1230pm, we chit chatted for awhile and she helps me to scan my police report to let me send the copy to my HR department in Singapore. How nice... after that, we called Annie and decided to go for lunch around 1pm... we ate very yummilicious bah kut teh at Desa Aman Puri, with very fresh steam fish head n huang jiu ji... really yummy!!! and we talked non-stop while eating there... haha!! just like last time...

after the very yummilicious lunch we had, we headed back to their office and continue the chit chat session with lenny and until the end of the day, then we went down to annie's office for the photo session...

and right after the photography session, annie n i went to jusco nearby my place to shop for something and we had our dinner at uncle john's kopitiam...

what a good day that i gotta spend with the 2 ladies whom are always doted me and pampered me with their love n cares... i appreciate it very much and hope to have another gathering before i go back to work in Singapore.... Thank you and i love you!!!

Passport Status Updates

2008-02-23T08:01:00.003+08:00

called to the immigration office yesterday to check on my passport status, mana tau, kena scold by the officer... i quoted my file no to the officer and he was so surprise and asked me, "what? no. 618, that's very new, only one week, you have to call back only after one month, now we have nothing for you!" O.o well... as expected actually, but still i need to call up to check, hoping for a miracle from the immigration, that they have it done earlier.. but, miracle just not happened always... so, i better work harder, to get it done earlier... i will call them again next Friday... wish me luck!!!

Progress

2008-02-16T19:52:00.004+08:00

i have went to immigration office on Friday (yesterday, 15th February 2008) for my passport case...

i was in fact should do it earlier, but i do not have my birth cert with me, so i have to wait for my sister to post it to me by express mail, and i got it on Thursday afternoon, and also a copy my company letter about my employment there, also being delivered by John from Singapore, on Thursday afternoon... thanks to my dearest sister Lishan, thanks to uncle Chiang, miss Jennifer & also MCT HR department for the helping hand you gave for me...

but, unfortunately, the immigration officer told me that i have no choice but to wait for the result of their investigation for approximately one month, and if they will approve, i will need to go down there to wait for another 2 hours to get my passport, which only valid for 3 years instead of 5 years... and i will need to call them up to check with them about the progress... gosh...

i know that i can also apply for emergency passport which can only be used for one time, cost for RM50, but this cant be used to re-apply for my working permit at Singapore... i am so confused that i don't know what to do now... will call back to office on Monday to check with company if i need to do so...

God bless!!!

Happy Wedding for my Best Friend Forever!!!

2008-02-16T17:05:00.007+08:00

Myspace Marriage Graphics

Here’s to KaiLi and SaiMun:
May they always love each other as much as they do today.
Now each of you has a best friend forever.
Each of you is a shelter for the other from life’s storms.
Each of you can share with each other life’s greatest pleasures.
This is a great beginning, but the best is yet to come.
Let today’s treasured memories turn into beautiful tomorrows
full of joy, fun, contentment and satisfaction.
The world always welcomes lovers,
and the whole wide world is opening up for you now
to share its treasures and delights.
May all your dreams come true, and may we get to share in them!

By Joanna Fuchs

The History of Valentine's Day

2008-02-14T16:06:00.004+08:00

Every February, across the country, candy, flowers, and gifts are exchanged between loved ones, all in the name of St. Valentine. But who is this mysterious saint and why do we celebrate this holiday? The history of Valentine's Day -- and its patron saint -- is shrouded in mystery. But we do know that February has long been a month of romance. St. Valentine's Day, as we know it today, contains vestiges of both Christian and ancient Roman tradition. So, who was Saint Valentine and how did he become associated with this ancient rite? Today, the Catholic Church recognizes at least three different saints named Valentine or Valentinus, all of whom were martyred.

One legend contends that Valentine was a priest who served during the third century in Rome. When Emperor Claudius II decided that single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families, he outlawed marriage for young men -- his crop of potential soldiers. Valentine, realizing the injustice of the decree, defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. When Valentine's actions were discovered, Claudius ordered that he be put to death.

Other stories suggest that Valentine may have been killed for attempting to help Christians escape harsh Roman prisons where they were often beaten and tortured.

According to one legend, Valentine actually sent the first 'valentine' greeting himself. While in prison, it is believed that Valentine fell in love with a young girl -- who may have been his jailor's daughter -- who visited him during his confinement. Before his death, it is alleged that he wrote her a letter, which he signed 'From your Valentine,' an expression that is still in use today. Although the truth behind the Valentine legends is murky, the stories certainly emphasize his appeal as a sympathetic, heroic, and, most importantly, romantic figure. It's no surprise that by the Middle Ages, Valentine was one of the most popular saints in England and France.

While some believe that Valentine's Day is celebrated in the middle of February to commemorate the anniversary of Valentine's death or burial -- which probably occurred around 270 A.D -- others claim that the Christian church may have decided to celebrate Valentine's feast day in the middle of February in an effort to 'christianize' celebrations of the pagan Lupercalia festival. In ancient Rome, February was the official beginning of spring and was considered a time for purification. Houses were ritually cleansed by sweeping them out and then sprinkling salt and a type of wheat called spelt throughout their interiors. Lupercalia, which began at the ides of February, February 15, was a fertility festival dedicated to Faunus, the Roman god of agriculture, as well as to the Roman founders Romulus and Remus.

To begin the festival, members of the Luperci, an order of Roman priests, would gather at the sacred cave where the infants Romulus and Remus, the founders of Rome, were believed to have been cared for by a she-wolf or lupa. The priests would then sacrifice a goat, for fertility, and a dog, for purification.

The boys then sliced the goat's hide into strips, dipped them in the sacrificial blood and took to the streets, gently slapping both women and fields of crops with the goathide strips. Far from being fearful, Roman women welcomed being touched with the hides because it was believed the strips would make them more fertile in the coming year. Later in the day, according to legend, all the young women in the city would place their names in a big urn. The city's bachelors would then each choose a name out of the urn and become paired for the year with his chosen woman. These matches often ended in marriage. Pope Gelasius declared February 14 St. Valentine's Day around 498 A.D. The Roman 'lottery' system for romantic pairing was deemed un-Christian and outlawed. Later, during the Middle Ages, it was commonly believed in France and England that February 14 was the beginning of birds' mating season, which added to the idea that the middle of February -- Valentine's Day -- should be a day for romance. The oldest known valentine still in existence today was a poem written by Charles, Duke of Orleans to his wife while he was imprisoned in the Tower of London following his capture at the Battle of Agincourt. The greeting, which was written in 1415, is part of the manuscript collection of the British Library in London, England. Several years later, it is believed that King Henry V hired a writer named John Lydgate to compose a valentine note to Catherine of Valois.

In Great Britain, Valentine's Day began to be popularly celebrated around the seventeenth century. By the middle of the eighteenth century, it was common for friends and lovers in all social classes to exchange small tokens of affection or handwritten notes. By the end of the century, printed cards began to replace written letters due to improvements in printing technology. Ready-made cards were an easy way for people to express their emotions in a time when direct expression of one's feelings was discouraged. Cheaper postage rates also contributed to an increase in the popularity of sending Valentine's Day greetings. Americans probably began exchanging hand-made valentines in the early 1700s. In the 1840s, Esther A. Howland began to sell the first mass-produced valentines in America.

According to the Greeting Card Association, an estimated one billion valentine cards are sent each year, making Valentine's Day the second largest card-sending holiday of the year. (An estimated 2.6 billion cards are sent for Christmas.)

Approximately 85 percent of all valentines are purchased by women. In addition to the United States, Valentine's Day is celebrated in Canada, Mexico, the United Kingdom, France, and Australia.

Valentine greetings were popular as far back as the Middle Ages (written Valentine's didn't begin to appear until after 1400), and the oldest known Valentine card is on display at the British Museum. The first commercial Valentine's Day greeting cards produced in the U.S. were created in the 1840s by Esther A. Howland. Howland, known as the Mother of the Valentine, made elaborate creations with real lace, ribbons and colorful pictures known as "scrap".

I lost my passport....

2008-02-13T14:50:00.003+08:00

what a big disaster for me on this cny... i lost my passport while i was at pudu raya bus terminal with my dad...

went to make police report at kepong police station, the policewoman said since i didn't lost any other valuables, she will write my report as the passport missing... coz if it is steal, it will become criminal case and it will be very troublesome... and after checking with the immigration centre if i can do my passport at JB branch, i decided to go back to jb with John on Monday when he went back from Sitiawan with his family...

am now in Jb with John and trying my very best to get the passport done as soon as possible... it will take me about one month in order to get it back and according to the immigration officer, i can only get back a 3 years valid passport instead of 5 years... gosh.. i have just get it renew last november leh... :-( really bad luck ler...

to all my colleagues out there, i am sorry for what happened and whatever trouble might coz to you guys... i will try my best to get back to work as soon as i can...

to miss jennifer & uncle chiang, thank you for willing to wait for my return... i really do appreciate and touched... thank you so much....

Holiday~ing...

2008-02-06T16:40:00.000+08:00

yes... it is so good to have a long holiday, a long vacation for myself... and am now having a real long vacation home... 10 days of vacations...

watching HK Drama series, , a very touching story about how the parents will give the best for their kids and how we should appreciate our old folks at home... chinese often said meaning old folks are precious for every family... we should really treasure our parents when we still have the chance...

recently, i often think of my parents... my parents might not be the best parents of the wolrd... but they are definitely the best for me... i see them now, getting older and older, i feel so sad that they still need to work... i am thinking to work harder, and gain more $, so that they wont need to work anymore, just stay at home to do whatever they like to do... maybe i should really go abroad to UK... but then, it is a long way to go... too many things around that i need to consider... and if i am going there, 2 years of working holiday permit might not help me to earn enough for the life that i want to have, maybe 5 years... okay... new year resolution -> to have a proper planning for my 2008 career...

tonight is cny eve, mum just went back to her hometown this morning... so, we had out cny gathering dinner with her in advance, which was last nite, we had a steamboat dinner at home... reunion dinner, meaning the whole family members reunion, maybe will need to wait for many years later, then only we can have a proper reunion, since laney is abroad with tom at uk... miss them so much...

okay, tonite will have reunion dinner with grandma and other relatives... GONG XI FA CAI everyone!!!

Chinese New Year

2008-02-04T15:15:00.000+08:00

gong xi gong xi gong xi ni ya!

happy chinese new year!!!!! and as usual, i am back to KL for the very special celebration with my family & best friends over here... i really miss them a lotzzzzzz... every time i came back, i really have the feeling to come back here to work, so that i can spend more time with my parents... because, working in other country is really tough... everything you need to depend on yourself... daddy & mummy are not around, sisters are so far away, best friends also not here... not like last time, when kaili called me to go yum cha, we can just go.. regardless of the time n places, as long as we have the energy to wake up to work on the next day...

i am not saying that life in singapore is not good... its just not as good as if i will be at home... i am lucky coz i have my aunt there to stay together... at least if i have any problems, i have pressure at works or other personal problems, i have her to talk with... but still.. the feeling is different... sometimes, when i wanna cry, i am afraid to let her know that i am not happy and i need to hide myself in the room and make sure that nobody notice that i am going to cry, then only i can cry... sigh...

but, i know, in order to have a better quality of life in the future with my family, i will need to work hard in Singapore when i am still young and have the ability to work, so, i will add oil, i will work hard... and will be positive always... i will be strong, i will be good... i will be happy too... coz happy goes lucky!!!

Losing the Love - Joy Enriquez

2008-01-20T13:21:00.000+08:00

There are days when I regret it
The things I said to you
I put my trust in no one
It broke my heart and I blamed it on you
You were kind and oh so gentle
But I refused to see
That someone like you existed
I was somewhere in denial
While you were loving me

Chorus:
I cried myself to sleep last night
When I woke up
There were tear stains on my pillow
It hurt so much to sacrifice what I gave up
Without you in my life
I will always feel lonely
Losing the love
From someone like you

Not a day goes by without something
Reminding me of you
The truth is that I miss you
It gets so hard not being with you
There are times when I go crazy
In the twilight of the night
How I long to be your woman again
Theres pain that I hold
That will not let me go

Chorus:
I cried myself to sleep last night
When I woke up
There were tear stains on my pillow
It hurt so much to sacrifice what I gave up
Without you in my life
I will always feel lonely
Losing the love
From someone like you

Bridge:
I dont wanna make this too hard
But I just wanna be where you are
In your life, by your side, forever

Chorus:
I cried myself to sleep last night
When I woke up
There were tear stains on my pillow
It hurt so much to sacrifice what I gave up
Without you in my life
I will always feel lonely
Losing the love
From someone like you

Uninvited - Alanis Morissette

2008-01-20T12:22:00.000+08:00

Like anyone would be
I am flattered by your fascination with me
Like any hot blooded woman
I have simply wanted an object to crave
But you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Must be strangely exciting
To watch the stoic squirm
Must be somewhat heartening
To watch shepard meet shepard
But you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Like any uncharted territory
I must seem greatly intriguing
You speak of my love like
You have experienced like mine before
But this is not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

I don't think you unworthy
I need a moment to deliberate

Out of Reach - Gabrielle

2008-01-20T11:57:00.000+08:00

Verse 1
Knew the signs wasn’t right
I was stupid, for a while
Swept away, by you
And now I feel like a fool

Chorus
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never meant to be

Verse 2
Catch myself, from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy, everyday
I know I will be ok

Chorus
But I’m
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never meantt to be

Bridge
So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time
You’ll be out of my mind
I’ll be over you

Chorus
And know I’m
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never meant to be
Out of reach, so far,
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There’s a life out there for me

I've lost my " HAPPINESS"!!!

2008-01-04T13:45:00.000+08:00

a souvenir from my ex-colleague - Bee Suan, was missing when I was on my home vacation... it was all the way from Taiwan... a bean crafted "要幸福哦!" means, must be happy always!!! and now... the bean is gone... :'(

it is one of my precious collection and now it is lost... i am really sad now... :'(

Happy New Year 2008!!!

2007-12-26T17:02:00.000+08:00

I am going back to KL tonight, 8pm bus... so excited now!!!

well, to all my family members & friends out there, Happy New Year!!! All the best in 2008!!! Stay healthy, pretty, wealthy, & most of all happy!!!

can't wait to go home tonight!!! darling, i will miss you...

Merry Christmas!!!

2007-12-24T13:48:00.001+08:00

today is Christmas Eve... wishing everyone of my friend a Merry Christmas & Prosperous New Year!!! or in tagalog, Maligayang Pasko at Manigong Bagong Taon!!!

搁浅 Reaches a deadlock

2007-12-16T01:00:00.000+08:00

久未放晴的天空依旧留着你的笑容
哭过却无法掩埋歉疚

风筝在阴天搁浅想念还在等待救援
我拉着线复习你给的温柔

暴晒在一旁的寂寞笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会你竟原谅了我

我只能永远读着对白对着我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我就请你当作我已不在

我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待读完了依赖
我很快就离开

藉口 Excuse

2007-12-16T00:58:00.000+08:00

退后 Withdraw

2007-12-16T00:53:00.000+08:00

不能说的秘密 Da Secret

2007-12-15T23:31:00.000+08:00

Da Secret 不能说的秘密

2007-12-15T23:26:00.001+08:00

冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面
拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见

最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
又何必去改变已错过的时间
你用你的指尖阻止我说再见
想象你在身边在完全失去之前

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡？

Family Day @ Sentosa

2007-12-07T15:39:00.001+08:00